I'm Angry At Myself

I've been having an affair with a married man for over 3 years now. I'm very angry at myself for letting it happen, it' against my life value and morals. Every time i try to leave him, he charms me back in. I met him when he came to work in my town from other town, so it was hard to be with him and we didn't have to hide it. He is an alcoholic and when he's very drunk, very abusive. I know it's wrong, i have a hard time living him. He is a good person, but doesn't know what he wants. He also told me, he has a hard time leaving his wife, because he's cares for  both of us. Now he's no longer in my town, he calls me and want's me to go where he is. He want's to settle down first and then, make up his mine about what he going to do with his marriage. I want to be happy again, i'm always angry lately. I let him go, and always back again. Please help.

sunshine55 sunshine55
51-55
1 Response Feb 11, 2009

It doesn't sound like he would be a good pick for a lover or a husband. Be strong and firm with him and tell him that he can't see you anymore. Wish him luck with his marriage and go. Pamper yourself and take some time to get yourself back on track emotionally. I am married and I am having an affair with a married man. But there are limits. We both compliment each other and fill the voids in each others lives but we know that it's not going any further.