My First Affair
It was my first, her...well, who knows. It has changed my life for the better. Initially, I thought I would have guilt and shame to deal with, but there is none of that. Just the opposite happened....I've been saturated with confidnce, more than I've ever had.
I've read enough and heard enough stories about affairs causing wrecked families, and chose a married woman to have an affair with to minimize any confusions about leaving my wife and family. She has asked that I remain exclusive to her and not fool around with "other" other women...I thought this would be assumed and expected, but she asked and that made me feel good about her not seeing other other men as well.
We have young children and since they came, the sex has been less than 5 times a year. Sometimes we had gone a year with no sex. I've also noticed women in my life have been acting very differently, speaking to me in a way that I notice it....they're flirting. I have been told I walk differently, I talk differently and I seem like I've had some type of awakening. Before I was married, I was always the kind of guy who attracted women with my personality, and found myself in a pickle more than once due to my inability to control and learn the boundaries of flirtatious behavior. I honestly don't know how this other woman even found me the slightest bit attractive one month ago, because I was nothing like I am now. Thankfully a spec of my old personality must have been present, or she would have told me to get lost.
The people on this website in other forums have been very supportive of my talking about this affair. Some people just don't understand, I was one of those people. I remember finding out about people I knew having affairs and thinking it was disgusting behavior, designed to destroy families. If you get caught, it destroys families, and from what I've read online, 80% of married men get caught....but you know what? eff the internet and it's BS statistics, it also says online that jews are the devil, and Bush was responsible for 9/11. I'll take my chances.