Cross RoadsI've been dating my boyfriend for 2 and a half years now. He has always been my world. When he was at work I would count down the hours until I finally got to see him. We were the relationship our friends always wanted. We would always talk about our future together and one day getting married and having children. I am best friends with his sisters, his family and him are my life. A lot of my friends relationships would end after years of being together and I always thought, "how could that be? that would never happen to me and him " i just couldnt fathom the thought of us ever breaking up. Last summer I caught myself crushing on a co worker of mine and it really upset me but I did not act on it and after time the crush faded away. Now,I love my boyfriend so much but I worry that we are more of best friends than lovers. With my past boyfriends I would always be intimate and what now but I never feel like that with him. I was always just comfortable watching tv, playing video games or just cuddling the day away. Now he works different hours and I see him a lot less than I used to. If this was the case a few months ago I would not know what to do with myself and now I am fine with it. I guess I should also mention I met this other guy. This is the big issue at hand. I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM! The other man doesnt know that I have the feelings I do for him and I would NEVER ever cheat on my boyfriend or would do anything disrespectful to him but I feel like lately the only thing putting a smile on my face is when I see this other guy or when I get a text from him. When I am with the other guy I feel more like my old self, do crazy things and just be free but when I am with my boyfriend I feel like a 90 year old grandma sometimes. I never had a problem with things being like that with my boyfriend until now. Should I tell my boyfriend how I feel or will I just break his heart? Should I ask for a break? What if I got back with my boyfriend after the break would he be unsure of my love for him? I know what the simple solution is: If you love your boyfriend, which I do then stop talking to this other guy. But the other guy is who I look forward to talking to everyday how can I just drop him? I feel so selfish I just don't know what to do. I cant imagine being without my boyfriend. I think what i would really want is a break with my boyfriend to be young and clear my head and get back with my boyfriend. i know he is the one for me in the end but i dont know about right now. I SOUND SO STUPID I KNOW ughh suggestions please??!
ananomousss 22-25, F 2 Responses 0 May 27, 2012