He Left Me At 6 Months Pregnant
I started to date this guy my junior year of high school February of 2008, we had the most amazing relationship. We had so much in common, we made eachother laugh and smile, He made me feel so beautiful and told me everyday how much he loved me. We shared so many firsts together and I felt like i was the luckiest girl in the world, our relationship was flawless and was perfect. In October 2010 I found out I was pregnant and after I told him everything started to change slowly. I would see him less, and he wouldnt want to hang out as much. We fought every friday because he would go out and drink with his friends the entire weekend and I never got to see him once friday came along. I was used to seeing him everyday and then it went to once or twice a week. I had so many things running through my head about him cheating on me. I would ask him and he wouldnt get defensive but would pour out his love to me and how he could never do something like that to me. We had a really horrible fight one saturday night and i begged him not to go out and if he could just once stay home and watch a movie with me, he yelled at me and said he was still going and that was the last i had heard from him until Sunday aroun 6PM. The entire day on sunday i was so worried that something might have happened to him and he finally called and i was so upset I told him I was done with all of his games and I hung up. I didnt hear from him until the next morning only for him to say he needs to think about what he wants and me breaking up with him hurt him so bad. I guess me saying i was done with his games he took that as me breaking up with him. I was 6 months pregnant at the time and everyday after that was a complete tragic. I would wake up crying and go to sleep crying. Nothing made me happy I was a wreck. I was in and out of the hospital having early contractions from all the stress i was being put through. He didnt talk to me, he said he needed time to think about things, months went by and he still hadnt talked to me. I was miserable at this point and everyone was so scared for me. My thoughts were how could he do this, after 3 years of being together, WHY!! I thought he loved me. Come to find out he was cheating on me since January of 2011 and had moved in with the girl a couple weeks after he had stopped talking to me. I was shocked and heart broken that someone that i loved so much and I gave everything to could do this to another person. After I had my son he maybe seen him 4 times in 2 months. I waited and waited and kept telling myself he was going to relaize what he did and come back to us. I was in denial the entire time. I finally told myself to give up and move on and just forget about him because he wasnt worth it, with what he had done to me and our son. I went back to work and Months later I started dating this guy from work. We were friends before and then became more than friends. He is great with my son and loves him so much. He is such an amazing person, he is willing to go above and beyond for me and my son and I adore him. We are still together but recentley he came to me and told me " When we first started dating you were head over heals for me, I feel like there has been a big change". I love this man so much but I can see that sometimes i get very frustrated or annoyed quickly. Im thinking it may have something to do with my past relationship and that I am affraid. I dont want to be hurt again and I think im just scared. Im not sure what to do, to get rid of all the anger I have toward my sons father. What do you guys think?