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Mixed Emotions

I had my first session of schema therapy yesterday and have been through a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions since. Initially at the end of the session I felt ok, a bit tired but optimistic. Then as I left the tharapy session the old self doubt and self loathing crept in, I felt selfish and self indulgent and told myself that other people had far worse problems than me and they don't all run to therapy. That feeling is still with me today but at least part of me wants to ignore it and carry on with the therapy. Last night I was flooded with unpleasant memories to and they reached in to my dreams so I woke up with my mind racing, not unusual for me. But it's going to be ok I think, I have enough background in CBT therapy to know that I can carry on and get better and that maybe I'm not the ogre I think I am. I feel a bit tearful now so I'll finish here.
Eggyegg Eggyegg 46-50, F 5 Responses Jun 20, 2012

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Best of Luck with this. I've been doing Schema therapy/ CBT for a few months now.



Like you, I feel guilty to be getting therapy as I know there's lots of people out there with bigger problems than me. But then again, that's consistently been a problem in my life - never feeling like I have the right to ask for help.



I'm finding the therapy very insightful but difficult. On numerous occassions the therapist has made an observation about me which I at first refuse to accept. On reflection I nearly always realise he's correct.



Stick with it. You'll at least gain a few insights about yourself.

Thanks for your comment gavney I will definitely stick with it.

Best of Luck with this. I've been doing Schema therapy/ CBT for a few months now.



Like you, I feel guilty to be getting therapy as I know there's lots of people out there with bigger problems than me. But then again, that's consistently been a problem in my life - never feeling like I have the right to ask for help.



I'm finding the therapy very insightful but difficult. On numerous occassions the therapist has made an observation about me which I at first refuse to accept. On reflection I nearly always realise he's correct.



Stick with it. You'll at least gain a few insights about yourself.

Cognitive-behavioral therapy can be very rough because it often requires one to relive traumatic pass events. It is not for everyone, and I have seen numerous drop outs in CBT.

Hope you have a good therapist, because I have seen individuals so wrapped up in thought when leaving a tough session that they had major auto accidents. A good therapist will have you spend some time in a break room chatting with others without making a rapid exit. Also, I would suggest a support group meeting with others will be very beneficial.

I wish you the best.

Thank you for your comment. Yes I've been through quite a bit of CBT in the past and it can be tough. My Schema therapy is one on one in my local hospital so there's no chance of chatting with others but we do a kind of wind down and my therapist always checks that I'm ok to leave.

Hello my friend, while reading your story I need to ask u a question what is schemah theraphy? I really don't understand it so I am afraid I cannot help you. If I new what I was dealing with it would help me better so I will have to say I am sorry that u are facing yet another problem I hope things get better real soon. If u ever need to talk jujst message me or chat me I am always here if u need me..Good night my friend..Antonia

Hi Anto thanks for your comment. Schema therapy is a kind of therapy which is particularly useful for people with personality disorders. Schemas are thoughts or beliefs we have about ourselves and the world around us based on past experience. They are often distorted. I'm not sure how the therapy is going to pan out and what exactly it is that helps but at the moment we are just going through the schemas one by one and identifying them. I'll let you know more as I go along. I'm on a break as the therapist is on holiday, it starts again on July 17th. Thanks again for your kind words it's good to have a friend and I really appreciate it.

It's funny, isn't it? If you didn't understand your tax form, you wouldn't think twice about asking a tax professional, but when it comes to understanding ourselves, we hesitate to ask a people professional, even though we are much more complex than a tax form!