I had my first session of schema therapy yesterday and have been through a bit of a rollercoaster of emotions since. Initially at the end of the session I felt ok, a bit tired but optimistic. Then as I left the tharapy session the old self doubt and self loathing crept in, I felt selfish and self indulgent and told myself that other people had far worse problems than me and they don't all run to therapy. That feeling is still with me today but at least part of me wants to ignore it and carry on with the therapy. Last night I was flooded with unpleasant memories to and they reached in to my dreams so I woke up with my mind racing, not unusual for me. But it's going to be ok I think, I have enough background in CBT therapy to know that I can carry on and get better and that maybe I'm not the ogre I think I am. I feel a bit tearful now so I'll finish here.