No Closure.

Two days ago after our date I gave the love of my life a painting. He broke up with me shortly afterwards. I needed to talk to him to tell him how I really feel.. So I texted and called him trying to get in contact with him but he wouldnt answer. I began to walk to my best friends house about 2 or 3 miles away. It was pretty dark and I was dressed in all black. I cried the nearly the entire way there... Shortly after passing a local gas station, he called me. I straightened myself out. I tried to get my voice back to normal and I succeeded for like 30 seconds... Right after I picked up the phone he tried to explain why he didn't answer, but I began talking over him because I knew my tears were coming at any moment. He silenced and all I could say was, "I don't know what to say, I don't know what to say, I forgot it all. But I understand, it's okay, I get it. I will talk to you later I guess," then I hung up. I was crying so hard I couldn't even think. Later on when I got to my friend's house I had gotten myself together and I wanted to talk to him. I called he didn't answer. Hours passed by as I waited next to my phone crying. Next thing I knew it was 2 o'clock in the morning and my friend was asleep and my phone finally rang. But it wasn't him. It was my Afghani friend that I hadn't spoken to for a while. I told him what happened and he picked me up so we could talk about it. I ended up texting my ex a long text message of what I was attempting to say. Then my old friend and I went to ihop and we enjoyed ourselves. I got home around 5 in the morning and cried myself to sleep. I woke up 2 hours later and sat by my phone the entire morning until I went to work at 4pm. This was yesterday.. It was pouring drizzling rain as I walked there. The work day went by fast because I had been daydreaming almost the entire 6 hours I worked. It was cold, windy and rainy on the way back home. Still no call or text from my ex. All I know is he flew to Chicago.. and I don't know when he's coming back.. All I know is that I'm on this computer, next to my phone, waiting for him to call... But I know he isn't.. But there's always hope..
ALovelessAphrodite ALovelessAphrodite
18-21, F
Dec 21, 2012