I'm So Crushed

I really don't know what to do.
I really like you, but you ignore me.

I don't know what I did to be ignored
I'm ignored everywhere
Home, Church, School, you name it.
By this you would think that I'm used to it
That it's not a big deal.

Wrong, it is.
And because of it
I feel horribly crushed.

I see the way you talk to people.
To my friends, why not me?
I'm not trying to be selfish and not let you talk to others
No. I'm not like that, even if I'm envious of it.

I cry to myself.
Cry myself to sleep.
I want to cry, when I see that you ignore me.
When everyone ignores me
When I'm right in front of you.

I can't help it wanting your blue, pale eyes
talking to me as you do with others.
I want to see them sparkle as you talk
about something that you really enjoy.

Am I that uninteresting? 
Is it because you think fat? Is it my Face?
Maybe because that I dressed ugly?
Is it because I don't ***** around like your friends?

I promise you I'm not bad...
Ask my friends, they will tell you.
I'm nice, and caring, open- minded and reserved
But strong, and confident when needed to be....

What do I need to do to show you that?!


MysteryLost42 MysteryLost42
13-15, F
Jan 18, 2013