Hurts Like HellMy marriage collapsed on Christmas day and I just didn't see it coming, she told me she couldn't be with me any more, we've been together 6 years but only married for 14 months, a week later she tells me she's started to see someone else and that she did the right thing by ending it with me first, Jesus..all this in a week!! At first I didn't want to know who it was as all I would've done would have punched his lights out which wouldn't have resolved anything.
Now the hard part, I work in the same building as my wife, and also as I've since found out, her new man, there is no respite, no refuge as I see her every day, they have moved him onto the evening shift so our paths wouldn't cross but I am still so very angry.
My wife is moving out this weekend, she wants to be friends, I want her to be my wife, seeing these empty boxes around is breaking my heart, how on earth do I let go when I face it every single day, I don't want to leave my job as I worked hard to get the position, I feel like I'm losing my mind, she is going, but I would have her back in a heartbeat, the pain is unbearable.
My chest hurts all the time, I can't eat and need a drink to try and get to sleep, which is invariably around 4 hours a night at the moment if I'm lucky, as soon as I wake the pain starts again. I've never cried so much in my life
My life is spiraling out of control and I feel like I'm losing my grip, The house will be empty this weekend without her and knowing she will be with someone in her new flat as soon as she leaves kills me, this man is supposedly having marriage problems himself, and I know for a fact is telling my wife all the things she wants to hear, I just think it's too convenient and she is making a massive mistake, I concentrate on her life all the time, I find it hard to concentrate on mine.
adecentcurry 41-45, M 6 Responses 0 Jan 23, 2013