Waiting For These Feelings to Go Away
She keeps texting me and I don't know what to do. God knows I want to text her back, but I can't let myself give in. I told her I wanted space for a while. It's only been 4 days. And its not like the "space" thing mattered a whole lot cause we barely talked to begin with. not since... Whenever I see her I am just so sad. I couldn't bear seeing her today at practice. Even if it was just for a few seconds. I didn't think she notice me. I was hoping she didn't, but then, after, she texted me. she said "This is too hard". Damn it is hard but theres nothing either of us could do about it. I miss her so much. I think about her all the time. Whenever I think I'm doing a little bit better I see her or she texts me and it's back to square one. She texted me "good night" too. She stopped doing that after we stopped whatever one would call it(not boyfriend/girlfriend exactly but a romantic relationship). Every fiber of my being just wants to stop feeling this way and deep down I know I still care for her alot. I can't get over her (not yet) and she is making the process so much harder. It's so sad cause right now I just wish I could see her. I miss the way things were. I wouldn't even mind if we went back to how it was before our relationship. I liked being friends with her but I'm afraid I'll always want more and we'll never be on the same page. This sucks.