Why Do I Feel So Useless?
This morning my daughter was meant to give a statement about a boy who sexually assaulted her. When i got home from dropping her sister off to my friends she still wasnt ready.
I tried to reason with her as she said she didnt want to go, as i sat next to her i notice a cut on her wrist. With force i managed to pull up her sleave and there it was. Cuts all up her arm, i asked her why but she broke down in tears.
Eventually she calmed down and we spoke, she said she had done it on monday morning while i was downstairs. I had, had words with her as she hadnt bathed all weekend and told her she smelled and needed a bath. God what a complete idiot i was, i wish to god i had never said anything because now i hate myself.
We now have an emergancy appointment with the doctor as she is very unstable and needs to assesed to see if she needs to go into hospital. Fact is i feel useless, i want to take all her pain and make her happy but i cant.
Im afraid to say anything to her incase she self-harms or trys to commit suicide which she has also done a few months ago.
I feel like im treading on egg shells, what really is the best thing for my baby?