Reality Of The Life

Ah,maybe you are younger as me..Or you are not.. While you grow up,you feel lots of things.. I am 20 years old, I feel like this; I have met reality of life, and It say me that; ' You are alone in this life,you don't have anyfriends who understand you and able to share something between each other' This is right! I always talk with myself,I think I can understand myself better than other people as Bob said.I don't know what I feel when I 30 years old.. I'll got a job, I'll got a responsibilities.. Will I able to deal with these things? don't know,but I know that; Since 2013 year,I have been looking this world different than people who around me..They live with traditional things.. Can I live in traditional system? NOOOOO! I'll kill myself! Reality of the life is,Everybodies live with their ideas. I mean, conservative people live with their conservative thinks. I am really curosity that, If one person didn't able to find himself,would he able to be happy? For example, If I hadn't left my family's traditional system,would I able to be happy? I don't know actually.Maybe, Traditional people's are really happy..Why? Because They live with together,understand me? they live with same ideas,same things..Getting married,do children, live your life which is as same as others. Life depends for persons. Someone lives for his family, or love, sex,car,property.Reality of the life, very disputable thing.Thank you for reading my thinks.And get back me an answer, What do you think about reality of the life? Whats the life? What do you live for?