Sad Days..In my years of life I have only lost family.
In 2006 I lost my close Aunt who was like my 2nd mom and that was hard but i was young and never really thought or cried about it.
but on the 25th of january I lost a close friend.. I have never lost any friends or close friends before. I had known him since 7th grade and im a senior in high school going into college now.. I almost dated him in november and I think that's why it made it harder for me. He commited suicide.. and nobody can understand why really when he had everything he wanted and he was doing better in life.. and i had just talked to him all day on the 23rd.. I have cried everyday and he is on my mind 24/7.. I know I shouldnt be mad at myself but I just cant help it. I wish there was more that I could have done I wish I could have seen the signs and the pain in his eyes. I guess I didnt cause I never would have thought in a million years that he would do this..