He Talked.......

He actually talked to me for the first time in a long time....The one i fell for very hard, the one who broke me a when i was in my vulnerable state at the age of 19: He turned on the old charm once again pulling me in and i tried so hard to let out my anger towards him but it doesn't work he knows just what to say to make me feel bad for what i said......He was my first everything : My first kiss my first love; He's married and yet he still wants me... He told me he was the reason for my unhappiness and i told him no as always surrendering and apologizing for being rude when i have every right to be, then he tells me he loves me once again and I melt like butter on a hot pan he drives me wild! I miss him and i wish i could just see him one more time and I would be so relived yet i know it will never happen..........I'm Just a pretty face if he saw me now he wouldn't even bother with me I'm over weight,depressed, and lonely wishing i could lose some weight wishing i could shut my mouth and starve myself never eating again just so i could lose a couple of pounds i wouldn't be so depressed anymore I would actually be happy for the first time in a long time.........
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Jul 15, 2010