I Have To Be
It would be great if I could share my name and show my face here. But, I'm from a very small town where everyone knows everybody's business. Gossip runs rampant and people thrive on judging and ostracizing others. My children's father has coached my son's sports teams for the last 5 years and is very well known around town. There is a certain reputation to live up to. I was also raised in a Christian home and was constantly taught that premarital sex was wrong, any type of homosexuality is a sin, Halloween is the devil's holiday, etc., etc. My parents love all of their children (there are 6 of us), but I've always been the "good" girl, the responsible and dependable child. I'm the predictable one, the one with a good head on her shoulders, etc. So, as sad as it is, if people who knew me knew ALL of me, there would certainly be talk. My boyfriend's social status would be damaged, and my son would also be negatively effected. My family would also never see me in the same way. I have little brothers and would die if they knew about my experience with other girls. My parents would NOT understand and I would be tarnished in their eyes. So, as much as I'd like to share my real identity, I can not. But, know this, I am more honest here about who I am, than I have ever been in reality.