My Friend

I'm pretty sure that I'm heteroflexible. I find men attractive but I'm in love with my best friend who happens to be a woman. She is the only female I am attracted to. I’ve done a lot of deep thinking on the subject and I know that I am in love with her.

I was going to tell her everything one night just because I couldn't hold it in anymore. The phone kept ringing so instead of telling her the truth I was an idiot and said that I still loved the first guy I kissed and left out anything to do with her. I've come closer and closer to telling her each day since then, but I keep stopping myself. We've gotten to a good place since everything that went down before ... (well, it seems to be better than it was) and I don't want to lose her. It's not the ‘gay thing’ that would make me lose her. We are both very supportive of everything LGBTQ related. It’s just that I don’t want things to get awkward and weird if I tell her.
hatethestress hatethestress
18-21, F
Sep 15, 2012