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I Dont Undestand, Somebody Help

I don't know what to do. Im so overwhelmed! Around an hour ago, my dad started watch a documentary on World War 2 and now I've been sobbing nonstop sense then. I"m crying right now. I just cant seem to stop.
I've always hated anything to do with war or any of the horrible things that happen in the world. But I also hate being ignorant, so I keep updated. it kills me. unfortunately, my dad AND grandpa are war history buffs. So I'm being assaulted with misery from the past AND present. I try my best to stay away, but this is the most intense thing that's ever happened to me to date.
Only a little of it actually feels like my pain at all. I feel like the rest of it is just flowing through me, and tearing me apart in the process. I just cant make it stop! I know if I try my hardest to stop crying, I can. But the pain wont stop, even if I stop crying. And I feel like I owe at the very least my tears to all the forgotten.The people who's name no one knows, who only show up as a number on some statistic. And to the people who's body's were never found. And especially to the people who, when they died, had no one left to grieve for them. Not nearly enough people have grieved enough for the horror that was that war.
We learn our history, we learn the facts. But nobody seems to really grasp that war is nothing by pain. Even most of the people who dedicate much of their time to studying it don't REALLY understand. They understand with their heads. Not with their hearts. If they did, they would never be able to study it so calmly. Every time they saw a video of a plane firing, they would think of the people who's lives it was destroying. And they would be disgusted with themselves for being able to so casually watch people's death without so much as a second thought to them.
So many people's pain, i feel like I'm going to be crushed by the sheer scale of it. Even ONE of those MILLIONS of people have experienced far more suffering than I most likely ever will.
Yes, people hear the stories, grow serious, and feel a little sad. But that reaction doesn't even BEGIN to cover how much agony, fear, loneliness, despair........I cant even find the right words. People suffered as they died, whether quickly or slowly. People suffered as they killed. The people who were left behind suffered. The people torn from the one's they loved suffered. Children, old people, young people, middle-aged people. No one was spared from the pain. Some suffered enough pain to drive them mad. And no one will ever know their stories.

And all I can do is cry.
britnye britnye 16-17 2 Responses Jun 23, 2011

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You need to limit your exposure the pain and suffering. This started happening to me at 8 and I still feel to deep sometimes. I know I have to stay away from certain things and people. It can overwhelm you. When you feel yourself becoming overwhelmed try to focus on something else. Watch a stand up comic after, or take a walk and remember the good here now. It's hard but you will learn to control it somewhat.

That's sounds so much like me. I stay clear from certain ppl and watch lots of comedy to stay uplifted!

this started happening to me as well when my "powers" started to work. EMOTIONAL OVERLOAD!!! So much it scared the living crap out of me. Tearing my heart apart. START telling yourself a mantra. I use "mike, your just feeling sorry for yourself" say your mantra again and again everytime you get overwhelmed. It will get easier as time goes on. Breath...deep breaths slowly. DON"T hyperventalate. Good luck! I'm ion your corner. (YOU ARE SSOOOO an EMPATH!!! :)