I Am Home Sick, Going Mad

I am in London for 7 years, now I am finding hard to go to work and socialise. I am so depressed with the lack of freedom and CCTV that sometimes I think I am better off dead. I miss racing other cars, I miss the hot weather, I miss having dogs, I miss fishing, I miss mummy, I miss sandy beaches, I miss helpful people, I miss having money, I miss myself.
I don't know what to do, I don't recognise myself, I am not a happy person.
My wife and daughter are europeans and they don't wanna go to a poor country (brazil), because it's too far.
Ok, Brasil is poor, but you are a free person you can do whatever you want to do. I miss shooting bottles on the wall. I wanna be free.Please, please, please.
gustavoklemp gustavoklemp
31-35
1 Response May 11, 2012

I am so sorry you are feeling this way, I hope you can remember that you didn't always feel depressed and you won't in the future. I think you should have a serious conversation with your family about how you are feeling and how it is affecting your quality of life. If you don't think you can talk to your family, there are many resources you can take advantage of to talk to someone who can help you. Please look at options such as religious institutions (even if you aren't religious) or counseling services. Also remember that you have a family that loves you in London, even if you don't feel at home.