Betters days will come, I hopeI am still hopeful despite...
...that I'm often rejected by friends, school, work, cliques, opportunities and past lovers.
...that things seems not going right, no matter how hard I try working to be the best I am.
....that I was always wrong in what I do and that my stars represent that I will most unlucky in my life.
...that I am too exhausted to live another day, another mornings of painful undertakings.
...that God seems not hearing me and when a little happiness comes he eventually take it away.
But, what else can I do. I learned the hardest way that no matter how I try to be in control in my life, everything seems to fall down.
So I decided to quit fighting the waves and let go.
Come what may, endure what I can take and be the best of who we are.
Someday its going to make sense. I'm still hopeful because I am still alive so there's more to come may it be good or bad.
Because everything meant to happen for a good reason.
Just please He'll give me strength, understanding and wisdom
and some good days in my life to enjoy. I really want to feel happy and loved somehow, I hope