The Elephant In the Room!

Now, for the most part... I don't have a problem with my weight. Sure, I would like to lose a few pounds (actually 30) but, as long as I don't get any bigger than what I am now, I'm cool with being ROUND! =p

My hair can be an annoying foe and sometimes I will have a "stupid hair day", which is more annoying than a "bad hair day", but that's okay. I'm not too worried about it, normally. ;-)

But... it's my smile, my teeth, that I have a real problem with. I can't smile much in public... I am awkward around others, because of it. I have been teased all of my life, because of it, and even was physically beat-up for it. And this is my huge insecurity. My best pals try to assure me that I look fine, so does my sister... but it's kinda hard to be swayed. Especially when family members make fun of me for it too. I am tired of hearing people say, "She wouldn't be so bad looking, if it wasn't for her teeth." Or also saying, "Everything is okay with her, she's attractive. The only thing wrong with her is her teeth." And this is often times my relatives who say this, not just strangers. And my mother gets angry, every time... Because it's not my fault, I was born this way. :-/

I do wish I could fix it, but it will cost more money than I will ever see at once. So, I'm just stuck this way. I have to just accept it and learn to ignore the jokes of others around me. Though, the jokes do hurt... and badly. :-(

And this is why I can only see myself as an ugly person... maybe someday, when I can afford it, I'll be a swan. :-)

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Mar 21, 2009