Im going through a hard time in my life and i really need the support of my family, but i dont have it. I never have, so i dont know why i thought when i needed it it would be there. I feel like no one cares about me. All i want them to do is notice im huring, but no one bothers to stop for 5 seconds to worry about it. I have so much pain in my heart and it makes a hard time even harder. I can feel myself pushing everyone who does give a **** away because what i want most is for my family to be the ones there. Not that i don appreciate my friends. Ive been through alot in my life. Growing up my parents werent around much so i just delt with my feelings and problems on my own. Ive always relied on myself for commort. I think thats why now i have such a problem tellin others my feelings and asking ffor help. I need help now and i wont ask anyone. I just feel the pain everyday. I dont want to burden anyone with my problems. I used to be the most caring helpful person. Now i dont wanna do anything for anyone and i feel like e eryone is so selfish.. im so angry all the time, mostly at myself. I wish my parents wouldve been better parents and been there for me more growing up so i wouldnt feel so alone right now.