Sick And Tired! I Am Running Out Of Gas In My Marriage!
I just had it today, 10 years with my husband and I felt like he never hears me. Simple request, please fix the faucet, or please fix the towel holder. The answer is always "OK" but it never get done. I keep repeating myself over and over again until I become upset and angry towards him, then I started feeling bad for what I said to him. This is my life with my husband for 10 years. I have two jobs to pay our bills, he lost his jobs 3 years ago and I have been the provider. I came home tired, and in my good days, I get to clean and cook that will take hours of my only time off that I am suppose to take a rest. My husband will only take a day or two to mess up the whole house again and clutter that you can see all over the house. Am I a bad wife to give him a hard time over these? He can be sweet, but never kind and keep his possesion for himself, since I married him with it, after 1 year of marriage he bougth a house just put his name only, I did not say anything, on the second year, he bougth another one and put his name only. I did not say anything, now I have to pay the mortgage and he told me once people pay rent, so that means this will be my rent. As a wife, I felt very hurt, I asked myself many times, Am I that underserving of his trust and kindness? that he can't even ask me what I want or It is OK for him to do it, after all we are married. I have developed a recentment over years and thinking how can someone be that way, is this fair, is this OK?
These are my questions to myself everytime I am alone, feeling sorry for myself, Is this right or wrong, I must be crazy or begining to loss my mind, I have scheduled a counselor meeting to discussed these issues. I am hoping I will get some clarity. Any comment is welcome.