Here I Go Again
I will admit that I am bad at being married.... This is round three and this time he has got to be the worst. There have been no repeats of the Ike and Tina event but as time goes on I seem to be getting better at preventing an argument. Am I still in love with him? No. Do I still enjoy sex with him? No. Yet as he puts it I am still here, he does not hold me down to be here he leaves by 730 every morning, and every day I stay. I stay because I am waiting to find a better job so that when I do leave I can support myself, I stay because my daughter who has had to move all over the country with me is settled, I stay because if I leave what will my life become. I will go back to living in one room with my daughter at mom's place, I will have no job , no car, and not any better off then i was when I left there. I stay because I don't want to be on county aid again. I stay because here is better than what is out there for me. Why do you stay???