I am majorly depressed, I know it because I have been before and I can;t pretend it's not major anymore. I'm thinking about killing myself alot and I haven't felt that way for many years.

My partner has no patience for weakness and the more depressed and insecure I get, the more he pulls away and the more lost I get. I haven't told him I was depressed because the last time I did he said he didn't want to be with me because he didn't want to deal with it.

I know I have toxic behaviours that are driving him away, like seeking reassurance and asking him if he loves me, but not sure how to get out of the loop.

Not just this, but other things. Oblivion is looking pretty appealing.
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46-50, F
Aug 16, 2014