I Am Me!

So I came to a conclusion, a realization and, this is what I try to remember. In the past six months, maybe even in the past year, I have changed a lot. I have recently had someone tell me they wanted the old "Heart" back…yet this person took a lot of that old "Heart" away, ruined some of me, per say. I have learned to stand up for myself, not say sorry for things I did not do…just to make someone else feel better, and not let people walk over me or control me. I have figured out that I have felt a bit down and run down.  It is because I had to watch what I said and what I did.  I was accused of trying to flirt with a few men, all because I returned a smile they gave me.  That when a woman smiles at a man, it means she is interested in them.  I have always been a friendly person, and that is not going to stop.  I have been told who I am supposed to talk to or be around.  I wasn't even able to talk to friends I have had for years, all due to insecurity and jealousy of another.  All that has done is push me further away. not bring me closer. I will not be unhappy because I feel this change in me is for the better. If the person who recently told me this does not like how I am now, then best to go on alone. I am not ashamed of who I am, I am stronger and happier than I was. I was always strong and independent, but am even more so now! Thank you (you know who you are) as it has truly made me realize that the last few days and what I have gone through, even though I have cried a lot and my eyes were swollen quite a bit lately...but now I know what needs to be done, and even though there were words said, I was right and it was worth it to me, to know I accept me as me, as I am.  That if others do not like me as I am, and not able to accept me...that is their choice. It also shows me that maybe I am just better off without them in the long run. I had been in an emotionally abusive relationship before, and I swore that if I noticed the signs of being in any type of insecure, controlling, jealous relationship again, I would get out. I deserve more, I deserve better.  ♥
 
Wings1969 Wings1969
46-50, F
Jan 16, 2013