So Far For So Long

I met this guy online while playing a game on Myspace over 2 years ago. In May of 2008 in fact. After several weeks of talking, he asked me out and I said yes. He lived 2 hours away from me and we were together for almost 11 months. We saw each other a few times and it was everything I ever wanted it to be, he was my first boyfriend. I had some serious issues before meeting him with cutting and starving myself when I got stressed. He put all of that to an end. I struggled with my eating disorder as all people who've had one seriously do. We had some problems with my cutting and eating disorder near the end of our relationship, because I was getting stressed again and he couldn't physically be here for me. So he left me for another girl who lived closer to him. I was heartbroken and felt dead to the world. We continued talking over the summer then he had to go to boot camp for the marines. We wrote to each other while he was gone and he told me in one of his last letters that he still loved me to death, so it gave me hope that one day we would be together again. I had a couple of boyfriends after him and none of them lasted. Then in May of 2010 he and his gf broke up and we got back together. He came to see me over my spring break and it was the best time I've ever had with him. But then his ex called him the night before he left and ruined everything... she wanted him back and apparently he still loved her more then me. So once again he left me for her... At this point I was just ready to give up. After a couple months he and his gf broke up again. I got my hopes up and he told me we would be together soon... but she came back into the picture. This time was the last straw for me. I told him since he chose her over me for the 3rd time I wasn't going to talk to him anymore. I stopped talking to him and after a week his gf tried to get in touch with me and get me to talk to him. I did and eventually they broke up again. We got back together but before then he moved... and now he's about 4-6 hours away from me. I'm hoping to move in with him in about 6 months. But every time I start to miss him more than usual, I get in a depressed mood and he gets kinda pissed off when I get like that, 'cause I just think about the negatives of everything. I'm posting my story on here hoping I can find someone to talk to about it so hopefully I can better cope with this.
tysgirl2010 tysgirl2010
18-21, F
Jul 20, 2010