The Hardest Thing Ive Ever Done......

We had been friends for almost three years,i could,and still can talk to him about anything and everything,last year he wanted us to meet up and i was ok with it at first,but chickened out about two weeks before and told him i couldnt do it,he understood and we still talked and carried on like normal,last july i moved to scotland(big mistake) and he took a job in afgahnistan,we started talking on facebook again,and before i knew it i was agreeing to meet him again,we met in june of this year,and it was the most intense 10 days of my life,hes my soulmate,he admitted to me that from the moment we first started talking he knew he wanted to be with me,ive never been more in love and so happy,but so miserable at the same time,hes currently back in kabul,i wont see him for another 6 weeks,we talk every night,send emails,pictures,and(please dont laugh) i bought two voice recorders,so we can say things to each other etc and send them to each other to listen to,i dont enjoy being on my own for such long periods of time,and at times i wish we had just stayed friends,but a part of me knew i was in love with him and that part wouldnt shut up about it.we wouldnt be where we are today if it wasnt for communication,that is important in any relationship but is paramount in a ldr,it gets frustrating at times,the internet where he is,isnt reliable and its exspensive to call so what time we get to chat is very precious,so we dont waste it with pettiness or negative emotions.you also have to be able to trust each other implicitly and dont let doubts cloud your mind,ive been told by friends that the distance between us will eventually kill our relationship,but thats because they dont understand the bond we have,if you love someone you are willing to wait for them,you will go to hell and back for them and endure any hardship because you know at the end of it all,they will be there....

clarice666 clarice666
31-35, F
Aug 1, 2010