Long Distance Is Killing MeI have been with my partner for over a year now, and 8 months of that have been long distance. When we first started dating and going out it was so easy. but then i had to move 7 hours away to study, and the first month or two it was good we talked every night or second night. But the last few month things have been falling apart, the communication is fall down and i feel neglected.
All i want him to do is send me a letter, but lately it has been hard to even get a phone call. I often send a letter or small cheap parcel just to let him know i love him, and i thought i might get a leter back but never did. Then someone told me you have to spell things out to boys, so i asked (even though it spoilt the whole idea of the spontinuity of getting a letter). and guess what even though i told him how much i would appreciate getting a short letter in the post he hasn't sent one. I accident left my bank card at his when i went down two weeks ago and and he had to post them down, he put them in an envelope with nothing else, not even a note saying hi. It broke my heart considering he knew how much i wanted a letter.
Last week he didnt call once or answer my calls, becuase he went tot he pub after work. And this plus a lot more was it for me. and i ended it, even though i still loved him. But he apologiesed said soory he loved me and he promised me he would try. I was trying so hard not to give in but i love him so much. so now we are back together and nothing has changed. He still can't manage to put sometiime away to talk to me or write me a letter.
He always tells me he love me, but he never shows me. And it really hurts me. to think i am putting so much in to this relationship and trying so hard and getting nothing in return.
I am to scared to leave him. He is the only one i have ever loved or been able to open up to. And i when we are together it is perfect. the connection is there and everything else is forgotten. however even lately when i visit he is too busy and we hang out with his friends and not just the two of us. I think i am starting to see a side of him i dont like. I want to ignore it but it destroying me. and i cant leave him, becuase last time i did he cried and i cant hurt him like that.
I HATE HIM BUT I LOVE HIM JUST AS MUCH
Shaz71 18-21, F 5 Responses 0 Aug 29, 2010