Isn't It Rough?

God, this committed long distance relationship stuff is hard.
I honestly am so in love with my girlfriend (T) who lives 1500 miles away from me and has been mine for about 7 1/2 months. I have the strongest feelings towards her but they fill my chest with excruciating pain. T is someone I could see myself spending the rest of my life with. We have talked about our plans together in the future and everything seems perfect but we still have 18 months before we can even be together. It hurts so much knowing that my baby is so far away and that I can't be there to make her feel safe, cared for, and loved. I don't know what to do. I hate these feelings of emptiness and loneliness. I just want her here by my side. I would do anything to get her here. She's the woman of my dreams, my entire life. I want us to be happy but we can't without one another and there's nothing I can do about it. This saddens me. I have no idea how to cope with this relationship and these emotions. And tips?
CantStopThinkingBoutHer CantStopThinkingBoutHer
13-15, F
May 9, 2012