I Am In a Long Distance Relationship
I am in a long distance relationship. I have been for over 2 years.Currently there is approx. 14596 kilometers distance seperating us, 7 hours time difference, and a world standing between us.
And although I wouldn't trade what I have (and more importantly the person I have it with), I can honestly say I have had enough of being a long distance relationship. It is the most horrible thing in the world, being apart from the person you love. It's like there is a hole where they are in your heart, a peice missing where 'they' should be. Each day is a struggle to keep it together, to hold onto the part of you that is with 'them', the part where it is all easy and happy. It' lonely, a soul-crushing, numbing lonliness unlike anything else.
These last few months I have had a pretty horrible time of keeping it together. I have been the cause of a lot of problems in my relationship. I guess when I do some self relflection, it is because I cannot really cope with the distance any more. I am unhappy trying to cope with being in a relationship where I have to fight every day to keep things going forward. It's hard to come home at the end of the day knowing there is no one there to great you at the door, that your comfort is a voice on the computer because Skype is the only real way to keep in contact, and the hugs you get you can't feel.
More than anything I want things to progress in my relationship. But I know right now We are at a standstill, because I know neither of us are ready to give, to make that decision that neither of us really want to make. That's a sad thing to be aware of, and although I understand it, it is something I hate hanging over my head.
So yes, I am in a long distance relationship, and although I know I do not want to lose the person I am 'with', it is not a relationship I want to be in any more...
Age:
22-25
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Male
