I Am In a Long Distance Relationship

:'(

By: NashBlaze

Written on February 12th, 2013

I've been in this long distance relationship for 2 years. It's pathetic, we are two states away (she lives in Indiana and I live in New York)... This girl was one of the best things that happened to me... She actually made me feel like I was important to someone (even though now I realize I am not, I'm worthless)... But today, she is telling me that all of a sudden this guy comes into her life and she wants to just be friends....... I got beat for weeks by my parents for liking her I got made fun of for liking her, I sacrificed so much for her and this is what I get?... Where did I go wrong? Am I that much of a waste of space that I have to be treated like that? It seems like I am....... I'm thinking of giving up..... It just.... Doesn't matter anymore... Being alive...... Is torture in itself..... I know I am gonna be alone anyway with a sad pitiful life so why should I deal with it now? I know god hates me and wants me to do it... So why not fulfill his wish? It'd be better for everyone too.....

By: NashBlaze

Age: 16-17 , Male

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12 responses

NashBlaze

I tried it today and only BARELY missed my vein... My instincts are telling me to stay alive.... But why if I want to die?

Feb 13
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happynaomi

Hey be strong god loves you that girl going to miss out so much in life it's not your fault just be strong I AM HERE FOR U :)

Feb 13
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- NashBlaze
  Im tired of being strong.... what's the point.... and like I said I feel God doesnt love me.... and she isn't missing out on anything.... :(
  
  Feb 13
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- happynaomi
  GOD LOVES YOU and she's missing out big timee cause you sound like a really nice person
  
  Feb 14
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- NashBlaze
  If I were nice why was I ditched? If god loved me why make me suffer that bad. I already deal with worse in my home to the point where I don't even want to live there anymore...
  
  Feb 14
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- NashBlaze
  I'm sorry for what I said just now.... I'm just extremely aggravated now.... She talks to me every few minutes about her boyfriend and everything I feel the need to hurt myself...... It kills me... But I love her so much and I thought she loved me back for me... :'(
  
  Feb 14
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- happynaomi
  Stop it.... :( SMILE BE HAPPY YOU GOT LIFE IN YOU...
  
  Feb 22
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- happynaomi
  Sigh alright it's okay...
  
  Feb 22
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- NashBlaze
  The "life" I feel in me right now is sad.. very sad.... and I'm sad... I hate her... but I love her. People tell ne to just forget her. Its not that simple and I doubt ill forget her...
  
  Feb 24
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- happynaomi
  Your'e in a same postion liked me CONFUSED IN LOVE..No worries am having that feeling to like i LOVE/HATE him... :( But am trying to hold on
  
  Feb 25
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dayandnight33

Dear good boy,
you have written a very touching piece of work!! Excellent! But let me say that. You wrote "I know God hates me wants me to do it"... well I respect what you feel, but please think twice about it... Is it perhaps that God wants you to learn a lesson? Is it perhaps that God wants you to become a great man?.... I see that you are young, dear good boy, so please take this "episode" of your life like a lesson without no judgements or regrets.. and go further ..life is waiting for you!!!

Feb 13
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- NashBlaze
  What lesson should be learned from this? Cause I plainly don't see it... and this isn't the first time she's done this to me..... I honestly don't like my life... and I couldn't find anyone that would take me in real life... so I just..... demeaned myself. By doing a long distance relationship I basically told myself I'm worthless...
  
  Feb 13
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