I live in Alaska, my love lives in England. We are both extremely introverted. We met through an online dating service. Having said all that.... We started out sending emails every few days, then he invited me to chat with him. After a couple of months, he asked if he could call me on the phone. Over the last 9 months, we have become each others best friend and confidant. When his current job project is complete, his plans are to move to Alaska with me, get married, and live here for at least the next year. After that, we will decide what job project is next and how far we wish to travel to make it happen. We have become so close, so emotionally connected, it's hard to imagine that we have not met in person. Our love continues to grow by leaps and bounds. 10,000 miles? I can't be sure, but that's darn close. Soon, my love, very soon!
I love this man with all my heart, but that doesn't stop me from feeling lonely and wondering if I am simply living in my own little world. We have experienced a lot of emotions over this time and distance, ups and downs, and still we find ourselves reaching out to one another. Yearning for the time when we can be together, wondering if it will ever happen. Praying to God for patience and enough love to bridge this gap until we are face to face. I often find myself wondering, what will that first moment together be like? Will we laugh? Will we cry? I can not think about him without my heart skipping a beat, and I know that he is a part of me. And I know, when I get his sweet emails, that I am a part of him.
I didn't start out even thinking about a long distance relationship, but here we are, and I would not trade anything in this last year! We both giggle when we thing back to the beginning. Neither one of us took this very seriously. Somehow, all at once it just became crystal clear that what we have is something special and worth pursuing. That first tentative, feeling like you are losing your mind, "I love you", has turned into the sweetest, most wonderful love either one of us could have ever imagined.
Am I worried that we have not met in person? Sure. Who wouldn't be?! One thing I know for certain, we have great communication skills. We can talk about anything. We are comfortable sharing our emotions with one another. And even at this great distance, we have managed to be each others best support system, best friend and confidant. When one of us cries, the other one knows it, even before the email or phone call goes out. With a connection like that, we are going to be just fine. :)
For all of you out there with doubts and fears.... Go back and read that last email, that last message. No matter what is going on, we always save that last paragraph to share emotions, and the last three words are always, 'I LOVE YOU'!!! Never leave room for doubt. When I don't hear from him for 4 days, I KNOW it is because he is swamped with work, and we are on opposite sides of this earth with a 9 hour time difference! I work full time with a two hour commute each day, he works 18 hours a day.... our schedules are completely insane! Just when I begin to worry that something might be wrong, and I am reading that last 'I LOVE YOU', I get a new email, telling me what has been happening, and a brand new 'I LOVE YOU'! Everything in my world is right again. We never send cross words. There will be plenty of time for that, the rest of our lives. We decided right from the start that we would treat each other as if the other is the most precious gift in the world.
"The only happiness in life is to love, and be loved" --George Sands--
My wish. . . . for everyone to find the love of their life! I thank God every day for mine.
On October 02, 2010 my love died in a work related accident. He never got to come home to me.
It's been 16 months now and I am still on a very unstable emotional road.
Thanks for reading my story. The ending was not anything I would have thought could happen.