I Feel So Alone, He Is All I Have

My darling boyfriend lives in the states while I am in Canada. We have been together for 8 months now, have not yet met but he is my best friend. I love him so so much.

I have a four day weekend, with friday, saturday, sunday and monday off, I am living at a friend's place instead of the university (where I'd be tempted to attend parties). My parents are actually in the state where my boyfriend is (they do not know this). And my man is at drill this weekend.

His sleeping schedule due to his job, is opposite to mine, and his drill schedule makes him busy all day too. I have no seen (facetime) or talked to him in a few days and I couldn't feel more alone.

My friend's place is lonely too. She never talks to me, always busy with some work or another. He is busy being an amazing sergeant and man for his country. I am left alone.

Tonight he called me when he was in bed, he sounded half asleep but he managed to say a few words before he passed out. I didn't want to tell him that I am so alone without him and that I wish we could talk because I know it would upset him. I fought back tears telling him goodnight, and he knew something was wrong and asked what happened, but I said it was nothing, I missed him and I hope he sleeps well.

He says I am playing games but I can't tell him how upset and hurt I feel that the man I love is not only very far away, too busy to physically meet me and now too busy to talk to me. He is all I have in my life, my best friend, my soul mate. The only one who really understands me, yet, here I am, telling him I am "fine" so he won't worry for me.

I miss him
3Dgirl 3Dgirl
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 12, 2013

Maybe you should try to tell him how you feel? I am in a long distance relationship with a man who is in the Army also. We have met though. But I feel like maybe just telling him that you understand that he is busy and you know it isn't his fault but that you feel alone without him. If you really love him and care about him you will let him worry about you. Because believe me, if he feels the same way he is going to worry about you even if he thinks you are okay.

Hey sorry to hear that, I hope you guys can be together soon :) Try to go out more often, visit new places or maybe do some exercises maybe this can help you ;)