Im In a Triangle and This Is My 1st Love :(

i've known this guy for 1 year but we're friends and all, since December last year he started caring about me and all, but I knew he'd already had a girlfriend, so I kept cautious, not falling into him...

His girlfriend is studying abroad, and their relationship is about 2 year long, they meet each other everyday through skype and all

however, i still fell into him... and i know he had feelings bout me too

on valentine's day, he and I went out, and he hugged me, and then kissed me on my cheek,..

we hang out several times after that day, and finally he said that he really liked me, and he couldn't control himself when he's next to me...

but he also said that we aint gonna get anywhere, for he's still in love with his girl, and wtf, he doesnt know what to do...

so i was extremely depressed and all, i dont know what to do, i find out that i'm terribly in love with him, but i'm also really mad at him, how can he do this to me? he's my 1st love, he gave me my 1st kiss, although for that i'm grateful..

I know that he's no way cheating on me, he truly has feelings for me, our feelings bout each other are still very intense...

I tried to ask him once and for all, want him to choose... but he remained silence, as if there's nothing wrong, he sms me like "Dont worry, things gonna be ok".. blah blah.. how can it be ok?!!

So I've decided that I have to be the one to stay away, to leave first...

I know it's so damn hard, i still meet him twice a week (he is my coach), i hope we'll be close friends and all, like we was.. and i know it's gonna take long long time to truly get him out of my mind...

llmm llmm
18-21
Feb 22, 2009