One Half Of A Whole

I've been feeling really down lately, missing my man a lot. He hasn't been gone all that long, and in some ways, I guess that I am kind of lucky that I have been without him less than some other people, if that makes sense...It is just so hard to go from being with someone all the time, everyday and then having them completely removed from my life. Some of my roommates have noticed that I have been down, and they try to offer advice, but at the same time, they do not really understand and when I try to talk to them about specifics, they look at me like I have three heads (military is its own language as I am sure all of you know).

I go to check the mail box everyday trying to remain hopeful, but I just end up disappointed. But the next day I go back to check again with the same hope just in case something might be there. I just want to hear from him so I know that everything is alright and that he still loves me and misses me as much as I miss him. I just want to know that I am not alone in this, being that he is one half of this relationship, I am feeling very lonely, and really sad...

I guess what I am looking for is maybe some encouragement. It is so hard to stay strong when my main support system is not hear to support me. I am trying to stay busy by going to the gym everyday, reading, doing homework, trying to stay social and things like hat, but no matter what I do, nothing seems to work, and I just feel hopeless. :/
ILoveMyGuardsman ILoveMyGuardsman
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 17, 2013

hey! i know you wrote this a while ago but icant help but feel like i'm reading my own story when my boy went away for 6months, especially going from 24/7 and just a text away to standing at the mail box, continously checking your phone just waiting for it to light up. probably doesnt seem like it but it does get better! i sulked for 2 weeks maybe and then iwas fine! itotally get how you feel alone, cause no one understands you like your man but if it helps, just know that every spare second he has to him self it will be you that he is thinking about, and everytime your missing him, just know he's probably feeling same. keep your head up! xxxx (: