Wife TantrumYesterday I had an awful outburst. I think it was due to sress, but it was awful anyway. Of course my husband spanked me hard for this. I was really contrite, even before the spanking.
Today we were having a nice morning. We took the kids to school together. Everything was ok, till we started an argument because of his mother. It turned out that she thought I had said something - wich I didn't- and then... Well, I don't know really. I guess I overreacted because I felt like he wasn't supporting me. I know he adores her. Maybe I got jealous? I don't think so. I used to like her a lot, but she is so opinionated and has zero recognition to me now...
He told me to calm down inmediately, but I was just furious! I know, this sounds like me just bratting. But that is not the case. I simply can't control my emotions when I get really really mad. Only a few things just make me loose control. This mother in law issue is one of them.
So I was yelling, kicking the car floor... Yes a perfect wife tantrum. I was simply mad. And didn't even think or care about consequences. He was driving so he just kept on defending her, and then I said something like, To ******* with your *****mother!!! Yeah... I know... I digged my own grave, right?
So... He told me he would take care of making me VERY VERY sorry tonight. He was furious...really mad. So I guess I'm in big trouble now. Arghhhh.... And I am still so agravated! I don't feel submissive at all!! I just want to never have to see my mother in law ever again!! Grrrrrr!!!
Sorry. If you read this, you are entitled to think I'm a *****.... Maybe I am.
anonimacy 36-40, F 8 Responses 2 Mar 15, 2012