Enjoy Life..

I'm a submissive female who is a tomboy.. i have a boyfriend. we have been together 2 years. He is dominant. i was wondering about him and how he is so dominant. i like that about him. he says my name in this tone like he's reprimanding a child but he says it lovingly to me. he scares me in a good way: if i lay down in his lap i get excited when he looks down on me.
He always says "Because i said so." I can say that to him too and he will listen. we used to live together but not anymore. we broke up a few times but He could not let me go. i forgive him and he forgives me. and to make matters Better? i have a diaper fetish. he accepts me and he has put many diapers on me. which i enjoy. he likes to spank me. i like that too. i love sleeping with him. he holds me close. i give him massages. i am submissive and he is dominant. perfect match? we can switch roles but i don't like to. he takes care of me. he worries about me. when we lived together i gained 20 pounds because he is a good cook. then when we had to live separately, i lost 20 pounds because i am not eating well. i miss him. now we only live one and a half block away from each other. his job is also just down the street. he's close but it feels as if he is far away. i know or i think i'm needy and clingy but he doesn't care. he is all i want and need.