Now He Feels Bad?Okay, I want to share my story here...
Last week I got the hardest spanking ever. I was talking in a disrespectful way for the 100th time and he got sick of it, so he called me from his job after a fight and he told me that I was going to be punished hard if I ever talked to him that way again. I said 'I know you won't do that', because he always threatens, and then he said 'just watch me' and told me to wait for him to come home. I have been going through some rough times (no joke) with my family, and he has been there for me all the time. When he came home he hugged me and told me that he didn't want to fight with me, that he knew I was going through hard times, but that his job as my husband was to control me and that I had to respect him and learn to talk instead of be mean. Then he said he wanted to take me over his knee, so I took off my panties and did what he told me. For some reason I knew that I wasn't going to get away with a few smacks this time so I was really nervous. The day after I was going to have dinner with his parents and I had been very nervous cause I always worry that they don't like me enough. He seems to think that I don't feel confident enough about our relationship cause when he took me over his knee he said he was going to make my *** burn so that I would remember that I belonged to him the next day at that meeting. It did burn for like two days.
Anyways, the day after I had problems sitting and he saw it and then he started to say that he was sorry and seemed to feel really bad. I told him that it hurt but that it was good that he did it. But he said that the next time I am disrespectful he will just try to be extra sweet to me. I don't want him to feel guilty. I don't understand him. What can I do to make him feel less guilty?
Angryletter 18-21, F 2 Responses 3 Jan 24, 2013