It Can't Be All My Fault!
I have been in an abusive on-off relationship for three years. We have been together exclusively the past year, before that it was a couple months here and there. We have a two year old son. This last time we got back together, I made that decision because he begged me and I really thought everything was my fault...plus at the time I was living in a group home and he was taking care of our child. Everything was perfect ("honeymoon period") for about 2 weeks. We physically abuse each other, and say horrible things. Sometimes I think it's all my fault, but I know that can't be right.
Example: The other night, I picked him up after work and we went straight to dinner- I never went in the house. We got home around 7:00 and I put the baby to bed. In the morning, he screams at me "lazy b***h" for not cleaning out his cooler- something I never do. It's not my "chore," if you will.
I have voiced my feelings so many times and it always falls on deaf ears. I can't change him and I'm done trying. I just can't afford it on my own yet. I'm saving up secretly and everything but it's going to be a couple of years. But I know that I have to do this right, there is a baby involved.