I Can't Get AwayI have been with my boyfriend for four years now, and I finally realized after3 years that this is an addicting relationship. We are both way too dependant on each other. We used to break up CONSTANTLY, and we would go 3-4 days without talking or seeing each other and every time he would start blowing up my phone, my facebook, showing up at my house crying and begging me to get back with him. Of course I always did because I'm so in love with him. Things would be so wonderful whenever we got back together, he would be the boyfriend that I want and need. That never lasts though, he always goes back to how he is.
I've pretty much accepted the fact he will never change, but I still love him very much. I feel like I'm losing my sanity (or what's left of it anyways). Every time we break up I tell my friends that I'm not getting back with him, but they all know that I always do. I just want out of this relationship. I do want to be with him, but I can't if he continues to act like this. Sometimes I feel loved, but other times I feel miserable and alone.
I honestly believe that I don't know how to have a healthy relationship... and it scares me. I just want to be alone and be okay with it.
sillyginger 22-25, F 3 Responses 0 Apr 16, 2011