A Whole New World!I just started an open relationship and it has totally changed the way I view relationships in general. Society tells us that we should only be with one person and up until now I believed that. Now after experiencing something way out side the norms of society I can honestly say I’ve changed.
My first time being with someone else was something that wasn’t planned or something that was even discussed until it happened. Now that it has, and now that I really enjoy it, I would like it to continue.
First off let me tell you a little bit about me before my experience. I grew up as an only child in a very religious family. I went to Catholic Schools all my life and was told sex was a bad thing and you should only do it after you are married. My parents never really let me date while in High School even though I attended all the social events like Homecoming Dances and Prom. I always went with boys but always under strict rules. I would like to think I was somewhat popular but shy. I was a cheer leader for football, wrestling and I loved running track. I enjoy working out and taking care of myself. I graduated High School never doing more than kissing a guy. Until College! LOL
Ok, College! I attend a large State School (I’m not saying where) and stated to experience the real world. LOL I started to party a bit and meet lots of new people (boys) and also joined a Sorority (again not saying which one). Then I met my boy friend. It was love at first sight! He is so amazing and makes feel very special. We were only together for month and half before I had sex with him. I truly enjoyed sex from the first time but never really opened up and let go because of my up bringing.
Then it happened! My boyfriend and I went on trip with two of my Sorority Sisters and one or their boyfriends. One night I got talked into wearing a very skimpy black dress with nothing on under that one of the girls brought because they were all going to were skimpy outfits and want me to fit in with them. Plus I thought it would be fun doing something naughty for my boyfriend once. He was so surprised when saw me with the dress. LOL We then went to a nice club for a night of dancing. Throughout the night I got a little tipsy from a few drinks and my two Sorority Sisters were grinding on me and then they started kissing on me. I was drunk so I didn’t mind and it was turning on my boyfriend too!
Now for the fun! To keep things short and not too X rated we went back to the hotel room and the two girls had their way with me and then the one friend with the boyfriend had sex with me. OMG! It was incredible! I totally let go and it felt so comfortable! My boyfriend was with my single friend and was watching everything they were doing to me! This went on all weekend! I was with the other couple the whole weekend! When we got home my boyfriend and I had a long talk about what happened. He told me how beautiful I looked being with other couple and how he enjoyed it. I told him how much I enjoyed it and how it didn’t feel weird at all. He wanted to know everything about what it was like so I told him. He told me he would be ok if I wanted to explore new sexual things and be with other people as long as I tell him all about. I’m not very experienced and he wants me to enjoy myself. I kinda want too! I’m ok with him being with other people too as long as he tells me. He says he doesn’t really want to be with others but wants me to be. He says he loves me and trusts me and wants to only make me happy and I love him too.
Ok! Here are my questions. Am I wrong for wanting to do this? Is it weird that my boyfriend is ok with me doing this even though he really doesn’t want to himself? He wants me to do this because its all about me when it happened and he says it’s like giving me a gift of pleasure (couldn’t ask for a better man). I also want to be with women too. I really enjoyed that! How often is it ok to explore being with others? It has opened a door that I’m not sure I can close right now. I love my boyfriend but get very excited by the idea of being totally free. Please give me as much advise as possible. I know I’m young but I really want this to work.
Belle2739 18-21, F 6 Responses 2 Feb 12, 2013