I Had An Online Affair...Sort Of

I came on here looking for something I was missing in my marriage. Something I've wanted for so long. Passion. Affection. Being wanted, feeling desirable. She wanted to know me, see me, please me, be with me. She was insightful, beautiful, sexy. It could have gone far.

But, I could never really have her. I made a vow. I meant it. I regret it. I'm greater because of it, but I'm far from happy or satisfied.

I let her go because I refused to torment her with what could never be. I miss her so much. I think of her every single day, regretting. But, I refuse to string her along.

Now I just want to really cut loose in all the worst ways with someone...anyone...

Almost