I am a submissive in training. I am currently struggling with some of the training, as it is not consistent and I feel like I need more. This is not because I do not love my partner, he is the most wonderful and understanding. However, within the last year I have experienced significant recovery of suppressed memories, of severe sexual abuse. BDSM and this lifestyle allows me to reclaim the safety after what happened to me and make it right. My partner works alot of hours, and he knows how this is affecting me. He has encouraged me to reach out and make connections with others, females only, in the community to build support around me, and maybe even find a playmate when he is not able to attend to me. I would actually prefer to find a mistress to help in my training.

Sounds far fetched....But this is my story.
sexykitty73 sexykitty73
41-45, F
Aug 20, 2014