Unexpected.One dark winter morning in 8th grade my mom was driving me to school when suddenly I turned to her and said something she still teases me about to this day. I informed her that I wanted to go to college next year. You see, I figured I had learned everything I needed to know to prepare me for college classes already and I didn't particularly want to deal with the drama of high school. She just smiled and told me that she would remind me of this conversation in four years when I graduated from high school.
Luckily, high school wasn't half as bad as I had expected, and those four years went by quickly. I was in the drumline and we spent an average of 12 hours together each week for all four years (including summers). I did pretty well in classes, nine of which were advanced placement (only offered junior and senior year). And I became close with many people from all different groups in my school of 1500.
Senior year I was accepted into quite a few schools. I finally made my decision; I chose a well ranked school about 7 hours from home. I worked all that summer at a low wage job and by the time August rolled around I was ready to head off to college in all it's glory.
The first few weeks went as expected. I became friends with the people in my hall, I got along with my roommate fairly well, and my classes were interesting, but not overwhelming. Then I got sick. The little things got on my nerves and I realized just how juvenile my hall really was. My roommate and I started to become closer friends and we spent more time with our door closed, still giving each other space. I was in three choirs and two clubs, but it was getting to be too much and I dropped one of each. Classes started to overwhelm me. I struggled to earn good grades on my lab reports, anthropology papers, and chemistry exams. I didn't feel close to many people, I didn't feel like anyone really understood me.
Recently I have started to try to address these problems as my first semester in college comes to a close. I still feel lonely and I still struggle in certain aspects of certain classes. College has definitely been much different than what I had expected back in middle school. I hope things start looking up soon... All I can do is keep trying...
Annnnna 18-21, F 2 Responses 1 Dec 7, 2010