No Way To Escape This Abyss

Aren't we all in the same hell, just dealing with different devils?

I look around this and this isn't paradise and nothing that I can do in my power will make this somewhat like paradise this is just hell. There has to be something better after this, this can't be all of it.. There is more to this.

I struggle and struggle with everything and anything that is thrown at me. I know that everyone does but it just seem that I struggle more than a lot of others. I am sick of it; I just don't know how much longer I can continue to struggle like this.

My devils are strong, a hell of a lot stronger than me. They feed on my weaknesses and the succeed every single time. They defeat me no matter how big of a fight I put up. I try so hard to fight, but I don't have it in me. I am not the fierce woman that I always wanted to be. The woman that is invincible and nothing can touch her, but I am the weak one that will crawl in to the fetal  position at the sight of most things.. I am weak mentally, you would think that the abuse would have made me a stronger person.. but it has made me nothing but weaker.. AND the devils know this, they feed on it and the conquer me..

There is no escaping this type of hell. 
imperfectbeauty imperfectbeauty
18-21, F
Dec 3, 2012