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I Am In Love For the First Time

I'm Scared of My Feelings

By: lookingfortruth
Written on December 10th, 2008

 

I am in love with someone for the first time and it scares me.  I am 18, and I have never felt this stongly about anyone before.  We've only been dating a few months, but it feels like forever.  I can't stop thinking about him; I want to be around him all the time. When he is frustrated, tired, angry, I literally feel his pain, and I want to do everything in my power to make him feel better.  There is this incredible connection between our minds and bodies.  He knows how I feel before I even know how I feel. 

I've just started college, and everything is very scary for me.  I wonder if it is the fear of loosing him....  I've never ever been this happy before, and I don't ever want it to go away.  I love him, I trust him, and I know he loves me back.  Is this normal?  I've only been in one other serious relationship before, but I've never felt like this.  I can seriously see myself dating him for a really long time, getting married, making babies, having a family and spending the rest of my life with him.  I'm only 18!  Is this premature?  I've put my heart on the line, and I'm afraid I'm taking a risk.  Is being in love taking a risk?

This is so new, so strange, so frightening.

 

By: lookingfortruth
Age: 18-21
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    lonelyheartsclub1
    lonelyheartsclub1

    I am 19, and also in love for the first time also, and I can well and truly relate to the all-consuming passion that is first love.

    While I trust my boyfriend to not break my heart, and I certainly don't want to pass judgement on yours, I would suggest really trying to focus on your study this year; I know too many girls who fall in love, let that love consume them, then let that love affect their results, even failing subjects at uni.

    You have to be really strict with yourself. Let him know that you're doing it though!

    Feb 1, 2010
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    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal
    cassandrathethinkerbleedsteal

    being in love is always taking a risk. I know you love him SOOOOOO much but be careful because one day he might just say that he has fallen out of love with you. in relationships, those googly feelings of absolute love are going to taper off after about 2-3 months. and that's when the real test begins. and if he does break your heart it will be the worst pain of your life. when I first fell in love, I felt the same thing you did. I loved him with all my heart and then one day five months later I called him and he said it was over. it's been two years and I'm still picking up the pieces. so just be careful.

    Dec 11, 2008
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