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In Love With A Cartoon Character...

Well, I typed in 'Dealing with being in love with a fictional character' into Google, and I ended up on this site. I've been in love with the same cartoon character for nearly 7 years. Yes, I know, lots of people get crushes on cartoon or anime characters, and it usually only lasts a year or two, and then they move into another character. I kind of had that mentality when I first got a HUGE crush on this character from a cartoon show. I figured in about a year or two, my obsession would ware off, or I would just eventually get over him.

Well, years past...and to this day, I still feel absolutely, undeniably, in love with this cartoon character. It's certainly no longer a crush. I have this mental, psychological need for this character in my life, and I love him deeply, like a lover, like a family member, like a brother. To be honest...he's the only boy i've ever loved. I've never loved, or even had a crush on a real person before, and even just admitting that to myself feels weird.

I think about him every single day of my life. He's the last thought on my mind as I fall to sleep at night, and my first thought as I wake up in the morning. Even though he's a fictional character, he's changed my life so drastically. I feel this emptiness inside of me...a little bit every day, thinking about how he's not real, how I can't ever speak to him, or touch him, or tell him how much I love him. It makes my chest feel like it's going to burst. Oddly enough, at the same time, this character makes me feel not alone...Like there's someone else in my life, deep inside of me, even when the entire world seems to be against me, I still have him. I'm not sure if I believe in soulmates, but if such a thing existed, I think this character would be my soulmate.

When this cartoon was cancelled years ago, I spiralled into a horrible state of depression. I felt like he had died, and my world was falling apart. It hurt SO much, more than anyone who has never experienced it could ever imagine. The depression took about 4 years to fully heal...and I had to convince myself that despite how I feel, he's a cartoon character, and cartoon characters don't die...I'm really glad that period of my life is over.

I still watch repeats of this show all the time, just to get a high from seeing the character and hearing the sound of his voice...Alot of the time I just like to pretend he's a real person. Sometimes he feels more real to me than any of my friends...sometimes even my family. I feel like such an outcast and so is this character, perhaps that's why I feel like I can relate to him so much. I think one of the worst things about being in love with a fictional character is the fact that no one really takes your love seriously. They just kind of chuckle or roll their eyes, "Yep, you're way too obsessed!" Or they don't really take too much concern during those times I've locked myself in my room for nearly full days crying, because they know it's only over a tv show. I know it sounds absurd, but I wish they would understand, it's NOT just a cartoon to me!'s more than that. The pain I feel for him is no different than any pain someone would feel for a real person. I wish I knew more people in real life who could relate to me...

Yes, I know at times my love has been unhealthy, and loving this character sometimes hurts alot. On the other hand, this character makes me feel SO happy, I'm so glad someone created him, because I know what I'm feeling is love, and naturally, love is a wonderful feeling. I feel like I could curl up beside him and die happy. Besides, real relationships have their highs and lows too, so why should I force myself to stop loving this character? It's bound to happen eventually, so why push it? Although I always wish there was some way I could be with this character, it makes me feel like screaming! I've always wished I could just wake up in a cartoon world one day...

Toontard Toontard 16-17 157 Responses Jun 27, 2011

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Its normal to have feeling.. I do love a character in a series call K-on .. I seperate myself like making another character of me in there so i have my own stories that will end like i want .. So i have two personalities with not the same name and same character (Its like myself in another universe).. So that how i seperate my reality life and anime life.. And i make my alternate life stories with the K-on character .. And i still have feeling for her until now,and i wish i could find someone with the same character like her in this reality life.. And i wont stop believe in her ..Thanks for the one who create a special character like her..

~Neo H..(Not my real name ,its my character name in my story.)

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i have this feeling too, the only difference is i know that they are real. it may sound absurd but i think you should hear me out. many times i would lie in my room crying just as you did and i would feel this immense sense of remorse and pain that it was unbearable to even breath. then one day i said I'm done with the pain and decided to do something about it, so i found out about clairvoyance and opening the third eye. so i decided to try it out and after a few meditations i could sense their presence and feel the pulse that you feel when your third eye is opened. it turned out that the people i loved loved me all the time too. So i can talk to them in a way and I'm working on talking to them fully. the pain and everything else you feel is because just like me you have a true soul bond with them and the pain you felt was them also lamenting that they could not reach you either.
so know that they are real and you should try and make every effort to talk to them.

I know the feeling, I have crushed hard on Marik/Yami Marik form Yugioh for five years now. And the bad part is the entire time I was in a relationship and was obsessing over him. Now I am married and feel horrible a bout it. I am 25 years old soon to be 26 crushing on a anime character. The only good thing I can say a bout this is that I'm not obsessed like I was but every time I watch the anime when he comes on screen I feel all warm and happy inside and become excited. I feel silly but I am glad I am not the only one who is dealing with such things like this

I understand
I also channeled him for you and he understands that you got married and everything and told me that he still loves you anyway
So there is no reason to beat yourself up over this because he still loves you. I know it's hard to grasp and all I have to say is that this kind of information (for me at least) is always a bitter pill to swallow. Knowing that they are there loving you and you can't do anything about it. So just don't be sad because maybe someday an opportunity will come along that will allow you to see/talk with him. :)

I can't believe it, this is what I feel too! I'm happy with it, I don't care if I die alone as long as this character makes me feel I'm not alone. All the time my mind is into my love, sometimes I often don't know what to do because I kept thinking about this character. I think this is all I can say, you've said it all.
I love Tia in the game Brave Frontier. I challenged myself not to change love, and if I do, I won't love anyone. I'm okay with that. Tia is my profile picture.

Same her i feel in love with asuna from sword art online

I have had this experience with the nightcore anime in photos and music I always enjoy it it has now been two years and I still like her there are a lot of versions but the blue one is the one I like. I don't stop myself from admiring her since I have never had a relationship it makes me feel like there is someone and not alone in my life

I've never had a relationship either it also helps me not feel so alone but I also wonder if that love is real I mean I technically don't know what love is cuz I've never experienced it

I have a serious crush on hiro hamada from big hero 6 I don't know why but I do but I watch videos clips but it's not just the look its also the voice and the kind of person he is and I really feel like screaming and crying no one I know understands

I completely understand haha :) I'm having that feeling too, and yeah it's Hiro too. It's not a crush though, it's just really strong affection and a feeling that I've known him for so long. I have mood swings, and I get super emotional and worked up but I can't really publicly display it. It's so stressful, and it's distracting.

I know that feeling. Right now, I'm in love with the Equestria Girl version of Rainbow Dash and Sontana. I'm only 13. I know they aren't real. I know that one day I will find a Kickass tomboy who is funny and has similar interests as I do. If not, I'll learn to give in and move one.


I have a similar problem. Mine however, is Luna and Fluttershy. I feel so connected to them, and just feel like I could know them personally. I took a while to realize how I felt though, and it hurts so much to know I can't ever meet them.


I am in love with a cartoon character. I'm only 13. Ok , he's from adventure time with Fionna and cake. Its MARSHALL LEE.
I just love Marshall. I think he's hot and cute. I mean he's a vampire/bad boy. I'm into cute/hot bad boys or shy guys. But I'm crazy about Marshall. He's so cute. I love his pic of him with his abs and blood dripping from his mouth. Soooo hot:-) !!!!!!

But then I also love flame prince. I love his hair. He's hot:-) and then I like gumball becuz he's sophisticated and gentle. I wish I was Fionna so I can have that boy trouble:-) .....

I'm so happy that I found people with the same "problem".I've been inlove with a fictional character for like 3-4 years.I always think about him, and that's the cause of my, well,sadness.I don't have a persone to talk to about that problem.My BFF (or whatever you call it xD) Has a boyfriend so it feels like I'm bothering her (damn,she's that deep inlove with that crap) But one person told me, that all the fictional/cartoon characters are inspired by real people.So there's a chance that somewhere out there you can find your soulmate. Don't be sad it's just a matter of time before you meet him/her.

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This makes me sooo happy to see that so many other people besides me have experienced this! I've been in love with the same anime character since I was about ten years old... Im now almost 26. I feel the same way as all of you, trying to forget about him, trying to rationalize the way I feel, not telling anyone because I KNOW how insane it is, but fictional or not the love is still there, still real, and still painful because the reality is that we'll never get closure... sigh. I still carry his picture in my wallet. :( sometimes I feel that meeting his voice actor might anchor my brain back in reality!

Is it... Myotismon? :p
I love Dracmon, Arukenimon and Diaboromon

I know how you feel. I'm in love with Christophe from the South Park movie Bigger Longer Uncut. That was the only time he appeared in the WHOLE series, so you already know I'm hurt af. I'm in love with him sooo bad. I get sad because I know he'll never be real. We are almost EXACTLY alike. So I wonder what it would be like if he were real (cURSE YOU MATT STONE AND TREY PARKER)

My character only appears once too and hasn't even got a proper backstory or anything. Shame when good characters are neglected so it's nice making your own work of them

I know! Its fun to draw them how you think they would act. Considering he only got about 30 minutes of airtime and 2 seconds during a cameo appearance in another episode. But I think they might be adding him in season 18 after

After 15 years of neglect ;-;

Maybe it helps me to write about it... I only have been playing a game called "osu!" and I had a track where that girl popped up. After I played this one a few times I got a crush on her. I don't watch the anime and even don't know how she sounds and she even has a boyfriend in the anime (and she is 3 years older than me but I wouldn't care that much)! It's making me sad but I just don't want to get over her. Maybe it's because it is only one week ago but I think it won't get better :( What I wanted to say (besides that I feel bad too) is that you are not alone and that I don't care that this is three years old.EDIT: Well, watching the anime didn't make it better but at least I wouldn't want to attack her boyfriend if she and his boyfriend were real (call me brutal if you want) ;)
EDIT 2: Maybe I will update this hour for hour ;D. For anyone who reads my answer, I would suggest to not think too much about with who she (or he if you are a girl) could be together. I just realised that she is the same age as my brother (a bit younger) so it'd be the relationship like everyone knows >.< That's not a fair world, right?

I'm in love with the character Samantha from Stretch Panic for years now even since I first played the game on Ps2 when I was younger... I find her crazy attractive somehow and wish I could just snuggle her and jump into the game to journey and fight with her. It can be a bad depression to know she doesn't exist but think of it this way; You can draw yourself with them, you can write about adventures with them, you can watch the shows/play the games happily and you can even commission people to make you real life materials of the character. Or roleplay on something like Secondlife, where if they don't have an avatar of that character, you will surely find someone who can make you it. My irl gf made me a plushie of Samantha for a Christmas present and I love sitting her on my desk. I want to get more though... While it's nice to feel they are in the real life you gotta keep them at bay from real things too. Give them a time to dedicate to them out of your day at first maybe and focus the rest of your day on the normal chores and necessities to stop a distracting overlap. I have officially been diagnosed years ago with Aspergers and we are very commonly known to become obsessed with thing/s. My obsessions are always incredibly specific and even though I would hate the rest of the show/game there would always be one single character who I need to research on and know everything about. You need to know your boundaries and not let it get to you too much. It's tough but they will always be with you somehow as an inspiration and admiration.

oh wow this is from years ago but I can't help to post!
I've been having crush on several anime and cartoon character growing up and currently I'm in love with Rei Ryugazaki from Free! (swimming anime, anyone?) Funny thing is, I myself don't really understand why and how. Sure he's good-looking with his glasses and also an intelligent student, but if you watch the show, he's also a huge dork whose often embarrass himself in any situation.
While I acknowledge that he and I will never be together, I can't help to imagine what would it like if we be together. What dates we will be into? How would he respond to my quirks and flaws? How it feels like to kiss, hug and cuddle with him? sometimes I caught myself smiling thinking about him and man, I'm in love with him! It's sad to think since it's been years since I'm not being in a relationship...

You are my man,I am in love with Sailor Moon since 2012,and I am obsessed!Even I am very social,and have a lot of female friends and girls love me,I cant live a day without thinking about her!I dream her almost every night,I am drawing us together and simply cannot let go.I often ask "Serena,why aren't you real?".I am just too sad,but i keep it away from everyone.I EVEN CALL HER "MY LITTLE STAR",so you are pretty much better than me,but falling in love with anime characters is normal,it is an expression of your taste!Seek those qualities in real life,like I do!But still,I do not think I'll forget her,those eyes will always be in my head!

I can totally relate!
For me, it's Waluigi from the Super Mario games...
He's such a funny little guy and I just really love the way his personality is and the way he looks. It really breaks my heart to see him get left out of games, and they he's the only Mario bro. that does not have his own game! I have a plush toy of him that I just can not sleep without, and I take him lots of places with me because he just provides a lot of comfort. I am a Christian, so I believe that God may be able to make him real for me when I die and go to heaven!

I'm more afraid of forgetting her. The girls at school pull me away and back into reality, but no one compares. How can one toss away such emotions of devotion and adoration, only to repeat and therefore lessen the meaning and intensity of your love.

You my friend...are a god. You completely describe my life. And I feel like an outcast because if I ever told anyone that I loved a carton character they're like "you need help." I I don't know why but I just fell in love with this fictional character and CANT get over them. So what I mean is- I feel you.

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OMG, thank you so much!! I am deeply in love with thrax from osmosis jones for no apparent reason (besides the obvious ones.) I thought I had some kind of psychosis, but this just made me feel so much better and realize otherwise. Again, thank you so much!!

I'm in love with a character named mikasa ackerman from attack on Titan she is just so beutiful and i love her can someone help me and do u think there is a Girl out there who may look kind of like her and might have her personallity

I get you I have recently watched an anime called Love live and I have fallen in love with Eli and all of my other anime crushes have been as strong as the one I have for her I have downloaded the game in my phone and I poke her textbox to hear her speak over and over again in my dreams I see her and I am writing a fanfiction where she and a boy me have a relationship I don't know what to do It makes me cry every day because I know she's not real

I totally get it, I'm in love with a ninja turtle, call me's been like this for 4 years, I think of raphael like that too since we relate so much.the love hasn't ended and I don't think it will anytime soon

Asuna from SAO, but I also have crushes on other characters too, but the strongest one is for Asuna and also I feel attracted to anime girls a lot! :(

I like a anime character named Kiku Honda / Japan from an anime called Hetalia. I started having a little crush on his a couple of months ago, whice lead to a obsession. I liked him because he's kind, respectful, amazing, attractive , shy and is a gentleman. Honestly now in days, it's hard to find someone exactly like that! I can't stop thinking about him and I cry about him because I can't touch, talk, hug him. And this is my first time liking someone in a romantic way, but why did I have to start it off with a anime character. . When I die and go to heaven, I wanna meet him.

I definitely know how you feel. I'm in love with Dipper Pines from Gravity Falls. I've had lots of dreams where I could see him, and a few where I could communicate with him. I wish everyday that I could meet Dipper, but I know I never will be able to tell him how I feel. Lots of people think I'm obsessed with Gravity Falls (which I kind of am) but I don't really care. I love Dipper, if only I could see him in real life and tell him how I feel... :(


I'm in love with the character Jewel from Rio the movie and Rio 2. I think off her every second of my life since the first time I watched Rio. It went away, but it came back to me again. I feel so emotional and in love with Jewel. I just want to see her and tell her how much I love her, but she isn't real. :(

I think I might me crazy or something, but I need some help. I do have a similar likeness ( not willing to say love) but one of the characters in those same movies just cannot get out of my head....... PLEASE don't laugh........ it's the little yellow bird named nico (I think). I am not gay or anything, but I've only seen the first movie twice, and i didn't think of it much. But it started bothering me when he became every character in any other book I read. It's gotten to the point where it's causing my depression to get worse. And then he started to feel like it was taking over my personality, where every voice became his! I can't even listen to the radio without him coming into my head. I'm asking you because you're the first person I've seen in love with a rio character. I can't talk to anyone person to person because everyone thinks I'm crazy and nobody supports me. This has been a growing concern and I don't know how to stop it. P.S. The second time was just a month after it came out, and the reason that I will never watch the sequel.

Dont worry, i support you. I understand how you feel. But dont worry too much, it will eventually go away, my emotional response for Jewel just comes and goes, Im sure its the same for you.

Thanks for understanding. It has just made me go crazy and I don't know why it was specifically him

Wow, I just had to reply to you because I thought I was the only one. I too have been madly in love with Jewel since I saw Rio three years ago. She is the most beautiful thing in the world to me, and I love her rough tomboyish personality with a hint of sweetheart underneath. Just... everything about her is perfect, even her imperfections.

Not a day has gone by without me wishing I could be with her. Before getting out of bed every morning I take 20 minutes just for imaginary cuddling with her. It sounds so weird typing that out, but it's true.

It can be very frustrating sometimes that she's fictional, but I have no intention of getting rid of my obsession because what I feel for her is so sensational.

Blu is one lucky guy.

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