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In Love With A Cartoon Character...

Well, I typed in 'Dealing with being in love with a fictional character' into Google, and I ended up on this site. I've been in love with the same cartoon character for nearly 7 years. Yes, I know, lots of people get crushes on cartoon or anime characters, and it usually only lasts a year or two, and then they move into another character. I kind of had that mentality when I first got a HUGE crush on this character from a cartoon show. I figured in about a year or two, my obsession would ware off, or I would just eventually get over him.

Well, years past...and to this day, I still feel absolutely, undeniably, in love with this cartoon character. It's certainly no longer a crush. I have this mental, psychological need for this character in my life, and I love him deeply, like a lover, like a family member, like a brother. To be honest...he's the only boy i've ever loved. I've never loved, or even had a crush on a real person before, and even just admitting that to myself feels weird.

I think about him every single day of my life. He's the last thought on my mind as I fall to sleep at night, and my first thought as I wake up in the morning. Even though he's a fictional character, he's changed my life so drastically. I feel this emptiness inside of me...a little bit every day, thinking about how he's not real, how I can't ever speak to him, or touch him, or tell him how much I love him. It makes my chest feel like it's going to burst. Oddly enough, at the same time, this character makes me feel not alone...Like there's someone else in my life, deep inside of me, even when the entire world seems to be against me, I still have him. I'm not sure if I believe in soulmates, but if such a thing existed, I think this character would be my soulmate.

When this cartoon was cancelled years ago, I spiralled into a horrible state of depression. I felt like he had died, and my world was falling apart. It hurt SO much, more than anyone who has never experienced it could ever imagine. The depression took about 4 years to fully heal...and I had to convince myself that despite how I feel, he's a cartoon character, and cartoon characters don't die...I'm really glad that period of my life is over.

I still watch repeats of this show all the time, just to get a high from seeing the character and hearing the sound of his voice...Alot of the time I just like to pretend he's a real person. Sometimes he feels more real to me than any of my friends...sometimes even my family. I feel like such an outcast and so is this character, perhaps that's why I feel like I can relate to him so much. I think one of the worst things about being in love with a fictional character is the fact that no one really takes your love seriously. They just kind of chuckle or roll their eyes, "Yep, you're way too obsessed!" Or they don't really take too much concern during those times I've locked myself in my room for nearly full days crying, because they know it's only over a tv show. I know it sounds absurd, but I wish they would understand, it's NOT just a cartoon to me!...it's more than that. The pain I feel for him is no different than any pain someone would feel for a real person. I wish I knew more people in real life who could relate to me...

Yes, I know at times my love has been unhealthy, and loving this character sometimes hurts alot. On the other hand, this character makes me feel SO happy, I'm so glad someone created him, because I know what I'm feeling is love, and naturally, love is a wonderful feeling. I feel like I could curl up beside him and die happy. Besides, real relationships have their highs and lows too, so why should I force myself to stop loving this character? It's bound to happen eventually, so why push it? Although I always wish there was some way I could be with this character, it makes me feel like screaming! I've always wished I could just wake up in a cartoon world one day...

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im 12 year old girl I really love this......anime boy name Al from full metal alchemist i love him im almost his age i have no crushes (in rl) all i have is fictional crushes i know how you feel i cant get over him and i think i won't i also like spyro (the dragon) why cant he be real......why cant al be real...why? i made this profile just to say this your not alone

Oh my...

It's like...

Do you know me?

Cuz that's how I feel.

I am in love with...uhm... Flint Lockwood from Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs.

Its depressing. And sad.

It hurts doesn't it?

I guess this thread is really old but i'm gonna post anyways. Created this account just to write this heh.

Well like 2 years ago I watched the entire Kiss x sis and i remember that i liked it a lot. But just recently i re watched it and this time it felt really different and special. 1 of all i think I have a crush on Suminoe Riko. 2 I kind of relate to the mane character, not that my life is like his but, he kind of feels like a close friend. and 3, I got really depressed after watching the whole anime because I kind of realized how dull our world is... and it hurts to know that my life will never be as great as theirs... thanks for reading, it means a lot <3

You know that phase of depression is an important part of the experience, because that way you truly know how much you care about someone or something, the amount of depression you have is equal to a tenth of the love you feel, or at least that's it for me, and as for the world being dull, it's not ,otherwise you wouldn't feel anything but dullness, i mean the world is as exciting as you make it for yourself. I can relate with your feelings and my advise is act on that thing that you think can make a difference in your life, i'll give you an example my love is Tali'Zorah from a game called Mass Effect in which i have no doubt you've herd of or played, now when i finished the 3 games (for the fifth time :D) i got REALLY depressed knowing that i'll never have Tali or Shepard's lifestyle, but when i really thought about it i was half way there i was joining the army as an officer that same year and i had Tali in my heart, so i'm half way there, my advise is: think about your dreams then act on them (also try drawing Suminoe Riko) that sure made my day when i did it (with Tali i mean XD) Cheers from Bulgaria my friend!!

man thanks a lot, you say really wise stuff, I think this is going to help me a lot!
And by the way, are you from Bulgaria? Because I am born there haha :)

No problem, and you being born in Bulgaria means we're brothers :D

My profile pic is of Ellie go check it out its my fav pic of her

You know what Im going to tell you about me I'm a 13 year old boy and I'm absolutely in love with this video game character named Ellie from the game the last of us so go look at her she is my age and I have a huge obsession about her I just find her personality amazing in all ways and her voice is perfection and day and night I think of how cute she is sometimes I just sit and do nothing but think of her I don't know if you will ever read this but if you do I don't think I'll ever get over her unlike you so best of luck bye :(

Yeah I'm not the only one just signed up I'm 13 and I'm in love with asuna from sword art online I don't know why I think it's here looks and personality but yeah anyway feels good to get it out quite sad she's not real and even if she was she would be dating korito her bf lucky man lol anyway thanks for reading!

Btw this started when I had a dream about me going out with her before I didn't have any feelings

Btw lucid dreaming really helps it's where you have a clear image and can control yourself / other things in dreams except usually not other people so I guess you could make yourself be with them and talk to them

Yeah, it's really hard to achieve that state of mind, but it's totally worth it in the end if you succeed.

ye so i'm just a 13 year old old school metalhead emo kid and im mostly strait but i find it so easy to fall for male anime characters like out of soul eater, dance in the vampire bund, black butler and many others. but im just getting so sick of the pain. theirs allot more i'd like to say more but im busy watching D. Gray Man and its not about pressure i just wanna be with them when ever i can so that's it for me

I'm in love with ciel phantomhive and soul eater evans. I cry myself to sleep each night debating and having arguments with myself. I just wish they were real. Mostly ciel. I'm deeply in love with him. Everyone believes me to be crazy. But I swear I'm not.... I just.. I feel like I need him

I know that feel...

I'm Ashley..an average 14 year old girl. I literally have no friends that understand. All my friends are into sports and "normal" things. (if you're a 14 year old girl with the same problem please comment your name so I can add you on Facebook. I feel so alone.) I've been INCREDIBLY in love with Levi from Attack on Titan. It hasn't been long but I know it's going to be a long time until I get over this. I pretend he's with me and I pretend he's sleeping next to me every night. I've also made up stories about me and him. This is literally tearing my life apart..making me not want to live anymore. Every anime character is based off of somebody's attitude! Somebody's looks! Somebody's everything! It's not just his looks I love, I love his attitude and the way he fights. Everything about him is what I want. Sometimes to make myself feel better I telk myself he's just based off of somebody and that you gotta find that somebody. I desperately want him. He's rude and mean and pretty emotionless but I know he carries a strong sense of love along with that hardness. Please help me! I feel alone..like I need him. There's a huge void that I want to fill with him. :/

stand strong. it's a nice feeling, love that is :}
just be yourself and if you are happy with him so be it.
i wish you the best in life :}

Thanks you too! c:

I just made my account to reply to this...I have the SAME PROBLEM. I don't have Facebook, only a phone, so if anyone with the same problem text me 479-276-1274. I have th same problem, except with Italy from Hetalia. I love him to death as one would a husband or family member and when I come across a sad story I usually cry myself to sleep...

Would it still be alright for me to text you? Haha you seem wonderful!

I have the exact same problem as you do, down to the very end. First, I am in love with an anime character, who, well, is strikingly similar to Levi. The one problem I have with this guy is that even if he existed he wouldn't love me I know it, he's just way too perfect. And my feelings for him developed so rapidly, its like a love at first sight. My heart pounds uncontrollably talking about him, and I save pictures of him on a secret file on my computer just to remind myself of how he looks like (the anime stopped for a while). I have no friends to talk to about this, because I am very shy about these feelings. I am scared they'll go away.
I made this account right now, I feel your pain. I don't know what to do but pray that he is real and I will find him. I sometimes imagine him talking to me, and ... it makes me happier.

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I created an account just to reply to this. I know this was posted 3 years ago, but I need to get it out. I fell in love with Itachi Uchiha from the Naruto series. It started out like all loves do, with attraction. I thought he was hot. And, as the series progressed it just...grew. I loved everything about him. I wanted to know more and more about him. I was constantly intrigued by him and was never satisfied with the amount of information I was getting from the shows and web about him (his back story hadn't been fully revealed yet.) When he died, I was devastated. I couldn't believe it. Thinking about it now brings tears to my eyes and makes my chest ache. Then, they brought him back temporarily again, but that wasn't good enough. I just have to think to myself that he's not really dead. He isn't real. Which is sad enough to think about in and of itself. I try not to think about it. I love him, though. That will just have to do.

To all who read this.
Love who you want to love.
Even if it is a fictional character.
Love is magic of the Light and that you have that magic in you is amazing.
It is a dying magic and you people keep it alive.
Hold on to it.
I wish you all the best in life.

Thank you, i think i'll do just that.

(I'm a girl) I know how you feel. Two years ago, I was on YouTube watching amvs (anime music videos) and I saw one for one if my favorite series but I didn't recognize the character in the thumbnail. I watched the video featuring clips of a blond boy named Alois Trancy from Kuroshitsuiji season 2. I watched all of season two in a day and completely fell in love with Alois. He's perfect in so many ways! The whole fandom calls him slutty, bitchy, obnoxious, rude, gay, ect. Nobody gets it. I do the same thing you do. I cry and think about him all the time. When he was killed by his butler, I went into a small state of depression. When people ship Alois and his butler, it makes me cry and I want to scream and throw things. I always cry when I remember that he's fictional, but at the same time, he has made a huge positive impact on my life. I wish I could wake up next to him. I wish I could talk to him. My point is that your not alone. All I want if for Alois to say he loves me. That's it.

I love Alois, too. Not romantically, but like almost like he were my younger brother. I want to protect him and hold him when he cries. It's not like sympathy or empathy for the character. I literally feel love for him.

I know how you feel, i'm actually in love with William from Kuroshitsuji! (I'm kinda embarrassed to say it) Everytime I get reminded that he's not real, I just get depressed and curl up into a ball because he's not there to comfort me. He's the only one that can make me smile, really...I just wish I could touch him...

I know exactly how you feel. The character I'm in love with (at the end of the anime) feel in love with someone and when I watched the episode I just wanted to die. I locked myself in my room and cried for hours. The only way I could make myself happy again was to convinced myself that it didn't happen. The worst thing (like you said) is that people don't take me seriously, I asked my friends for help because all I what is to be with him and I know I can't but they all just say "Oh it's ok." or "You'll get over it" and then they move on. I haven't been I love with him for as long as you have with your character but I just can't go on like this anymore. I love him too much, I can really relate to him and I feel like I know him personally, I've made very long fan fictions about us and they are the only things that make me happy. I'm glad I found this articular because I don't feel as crazy. God bless you.

I am so glad that i am not the only one experienceing this. i am a 16 year old boy and im autistic, i have never really felt love before as i find it hard to socialise with people and i find it hard to connect with them. But i recently fell for a cartoon mouse called Gadget Hackwrench from Chip 'n Dale's: Rescue Rangers. wow i am glad to get that off my chest! I just find her so... PERFECT. She is a genius and has no real clue about socialising well and about love, i think she is perfect in every way, i even find her attractive. I saw her pic on the internet then researched the show, igot all the episodes and watched 10 episodes a day for the past few days. Whenever i think of her (90% of my awake time) i get butterflies in my belly and i havnt been eating for days, i used to eat LOADS. maybe i just look for these qualities ina real girl, cute, friendly, smart and the kindest person ever! But it gets me down, i feel depressed as i can never see her, whenever a love song comes on the radio i cry. I feel pathetic but at the same time, im only human right? Thanks for writing this and reading this. WOULD LOVE REPLIES.

comrade, i know how you feel. i'm in love with Merida from Brave.
just like you i find it hard to socialise with people. but i tell you this my friend, don't feel depressed. be happy that you feel how you feel. not many people can say the same thing. love is love i always say :}

You know, ive never told a soul about this. But heres my story,
Years ago, i must have been around 13-14, i was captivated by the band the Gorillaz. There was this character, 2D i dunno what but the moment i saw him i was attracted.
I was totally obsessed with the band, it was unhealthy. My life revolved around them, and the more into them i got, the more interested in 2d i got. He had a story, which i knew everything about, i had this massive crush on him which at the time, i didnt realise how abnormal this was. I used to carry pictures of him everywhere and write books and draw pictures of us together. If i ever saw drawings if him with another girl it used to upset me for weeks on end. From the moment i woke up to the moment i fell asleep, i was talking to him and imagining being with him. It was like i had convinced myself that somehow, we were actually together.
People kept thinking it was a jokey crush but when i explained to them i was in love they told me i was crazy. It was tgen that i realised it wasnt normal.
Eventually i cut off all things to do with the band as i felt my obsession was taking place of my relationship with God (im a christian) and that was that. I looked at 2d one day and didnt feel emotion at all.
Anyway years passed and im now 20.
But ive realised my feelings havent changed. Last year I got all my old Gorillaz stuff out of my loft and decided to have a look through for old times sake. The moment my eyes met 2ds everything came flooding back, and i had to put it all back as i started thinking of him everyday again. Even so, i cant stop thinking about him. I really do think its love because i know that hes not a perfect person, i know he looks weird and stuff and yet i want to be with him so badly. I look at him now and he looks like a lost soul and it feels like its because were apart. I think im crazy, i KNOW hes not real, i KNOW we werent together but it still feels that way, and nobody understands. I am attracted to real people too but ive never had a boyfriend, maybe thats why i dont know, but even so i have a ridiculous longing for him which i hope wont get too out of hand again. Ive cried over him too many times!
My advice, is basically dont beat yourself up about it, if its driving you to the brink of insanity then i think its actually best to keep away. Dont look at them just keep away and move on in your life.
I still fail and catch myself looking at the odd pic now abd then, but God gives me strength i pray he would you too.
Im hopefully going to set up a schediaphilia support website soon as well so ill let you all know. Sorry for talking so long but talking about it really does help, i feel i burn up inside if i dont tell anyone ^^ much love for everyone, may the Lord bless you all :)

2D is a total cutie! He always was my favorite character from that band. I can't wait to see your website too! I've been looking for sites like that where people go through the same things as I do.

Hoo, man! You would not believe what has been going through my head these past few days. Now, this is very new to me, because I've never experienced this before. (I've actually been sitting at my keyboard for several minutes with my hands frozen because I'm so embarrassed to admit this.) This may sound incredibly silly, but over the past few days, I've suddenly developed feelings for... Oh I'll just come out an say it. I got the hots for Roger Rabbit. SO YEP. I actually got that out of my system for once! And that felt amazing. My heart is racing incredibly fast right now omg. This feels like one of those crushes you get as a young kid but you're too embarrassed to even write about it in a diary. I haven't told a single person about this until just now. Hell, this is the first time I actually admitted that it was Roger Rabbit! (hee hee, I feel silly for even saying it. I'm not used to this!) Before that, I had posted anonymously that I was having feelings for a fictional character, but I didn't say whom.
Even though it's only been a few days that I've realized my feelings, I feel like subconsciously I felt something beforehand, too. Of course, if I had admitted this to anyone in the real world, people would be majorly concerned for me! (You know, funny enough, people are usually attracted to Jessica Rabbit rather than Roger, because she's a human and whatnot. But nope! It's the other way around for me.) Like I said, if people knew I was attracted to a cartoon rabbit, they would automatically assume the worst things about me. Funny enough, I do actually have a boyfriend, and we've been dating for several years! I love him more than anything! But for some reason lately I can't stop thinking about Roger Rabbit. It's so weird! But I feel all warm and fuzzy inside when I watch him. GAD ZOOKS I AM WEIRD. I AM SO SORRY EVERYONE

I've always thought that I was the only one. I also have a huge crush on an anime character. She's from this anime called "A World Only God Knows". Her name is Chihiro. She's just an average person. Average grades, average looks, and she doesn't join any clubs or organizations. She doesn't really "stand out". To me, she's someone who is amazing to be around and someone I can rely on. I felt that our personalities were exactly alike. This is when I began to fall for her. I find myself in a tough position because it is extremely hard for me to love someone else. I've had a real girlfriend before, but she cheated on me and then broke up with me. I was depressed. So I moved on to fictional characters. I felt that even though Chihiro wasn't a real person, we connected on a whole new level. This is why it's hard for me to break free from this.

As weird as it sounds, I too am in love with a fictional character. Evelynn from the game League of Legends. I don't know why, but maybe around 5 days ago I came to realize this. I was for a short whie in love with Sivir, but came to the conclusion that it wasn't gonna last :P. Both characters I play a **** ton.

Im in love with her, because I feel as if I could protect her. I so desperately wish to be her knight in shining armor. I'm also sexualy attracted to her, but I don't have the "I wanna do her so bad" kind of mindset. I just want to be there for someone.

Plz tel me if I'm weird because of this.

Hello, I'm a 16 years old girl. and crap! I've been having this crush on Kiba Inuzuka from naruto shippuden for some time like... I get to feel I wish he was real. I feel so attracted to him. I even have created a Naruto oc, who I paired up with him. and I can't stop drawing them. I CAN'T. it's kind of as if I felt reflected in that character I created. I feel as if he was perfect, and sometimes even feel the need to give him affection, although I know very well, I can't. sadly. I used to have a similar feeling for Zero Kiryuu. from vampire knight. but it faded away later on. and I can't believe i'm so weird!.

Your not wierd in my book. Hell i fell in love with Flame princess from Adventure Time. As far as im concerned im the wierd one here. However ive never had a connection with anyone in the real world like i do with her.

I know how all of you feel, and it's really hard to get over...it's not a crush. And it hurts knowing it won't happen... but I'm secretly wishing it will. Someday♡

I'm the same way with one girl in a video game and she's all that I think about and I would do any thing to meet her and my friend said that I was crazy so I thank you dearly for this article and helping me out oh and if you wanted to know she's clemintime from season 2 the walking dead

Well, reading all these stories has made me feel better, so...

I fell in love with Pinkie Pie from My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (you know, the new show) about a month ago, and I can't stop thinking about her. This is extra... Strange for me, considering she's a pony, and I am also a girl. I've never thought of myself being homosexual, but I don't feel the attraction towards real life females, only to Pinkie.
Basically, I can never stop thinking about how much she cares for other ponies. In a song she sang, the Smile song, the lyrics go, "Come on everypony, smile, smile, smile, fill my heart up with sunshine, sunshine, all I really need's a smile, smile, smile, from these happy friends of mine!" And then later, "There's one thing that makes me happy, and makes my whole life worthwhile, and that's when I talk to my friends and get then to smile!"
You get the gist. Pinkie Pie just wants to make ponies happy, and she makes people happy too. I guess that's why I love her so much, because she's so selfless. Once she went crazy because she thought her friends didn't like her parties and didn't need her and such.

I guess all I can really say is that I began to have a crush on all the main characters at first, I started going all "Woah... That mare is beautiful." To each one of the six "mane" ponies. Then it went to Pinkie Pie only. The fact that she is not real continues to make me somewhat depressed, which is such a contradiction to what Pinkie Pie is all about, so I listen to her songs and smile like everything's okay.

This is really my first love, since I'm 12 (I can already hear the reactions), but it's doing good for me. I draw her a lot, which is helping me improve on my art, and yes, I do admit to daydreaming about romantic... Uh... Idk, "scenes"? Whatever. "Scenes" with Pinkie, you know, like kissing or holding her hoof and sappy stuff like that. ^^

So, to any brony who might be reading this, have a brohoof for being a part of an amazing, kind, and supportive community.
To anyone else, here's a brofist for being the same way. Well, I can infer that since you're here taking the time to read this, you're a nice person. *brofist*

Thanks

Whoops, forgot the brohoof. My bad. /)

*/)'s back* Awwh, Pinkie is AWESOME! SO random, plus that party cannon xD. Anyway, who gives a damn if she's a pony- point is, she makes YOU happy by being her, and that's what counts ^^
I too feel so lucky to be a part of the herd- however we may appear, that won't cancel out the kindness and tolerance in this community which I love. Plus, we all have our love for the mane six and co in common xD.
Also, I totally understand where you're coming from about feeling sad/ depressed that they aren't real- almost more so for you, as it must be so contradicting :( ((hugs)).
However, have you read some of the other stories in the group- how we are able to connect with our fictional loves? A few of us are great believers in the mulitiverse/ parallel universe theory, and believe bonds are possible with our fictional loves. I know for a fact that users Yalanda and SaturnSenshi have posted amazing articles in this group on how to connect. I know it's not for everyone, and I totally understand if you wouldn't want to reach out- as it's VERY daunting and there are so many doubts and conflicts surrounding it, believe me I've been there- but it's a suggestion if you want to check it out ^^.
(I'm very sorry if that came across as me forcing my views upon you >>;)
You seem like an awesome person- and welcome to the group ^^ *brohoof* /) :3

i know how u feel I'm 12 and also a girl and i love applejack from mlp. I'm not gay i never liked girls or ever will i told my cousin that i really trust about it and now she's no longer calls me her cousin :( she said that "she will never be related to someone who likes mlp and that i need to grow up" but I'm glad to now that theirs someone out their like me . MLP ROCKS! XD

I am glad im not the only one who is in love with mavis dracula but i dont know how many people have there own world in there head not sitt in there world but a entire planet
With its own troubles and all but wait let me start from when this world was made it wasnt normal one of my friends got me to look something up a story i was desgusted
But it had to many details i couldnt forget
So i made that world i found the scene abd the two and killed them it was not normal stuff one was reptillian that is all i say
But after i took charge with a mideavil monarchy u had a army to protect our borders now for the real story.

I watched hotel transylvainia and then i fill in love a new castle showed up on the border i checked it out no one knew i left we were having a conflict when i got there i couldnt believe my eyes i got to the bridge a heard a sound it was the sound of wings striking water i disregarded it and continued made it to the gate and was greated with a tackle this followed the movies plot perfictly this dream it continued smoothly but i made a change a royal potral was around the castle i sent them away
To ahem get rid of jonathan they did it the plot continued even though my clothing was royal my face looked as did as the next creature of the night
So the movie almost ends the same except married her in a royal garden and she was coranated 27 months later a princess is born and protected we still live in our castle taking many trips to kalston controlled land and i still love her
To this very day

I made an account just to mention this... YOU ARE AMAZING, im also completely in love with an anime character. ALOIS TRANCY FROM BLACK BUTLER!!!!!! :3
it all started when I first started watching anime, I decided to watch black butler, first being attracted to ciel phatomhive and sebastian michealis, but then I watched the second season and the second Alois came on the screen I instantly fell in love with him (how he was naked right in the beginning XD oh my god) and I love his clothes and his voice and his perfect blonde hair and his colourful personality ! His blue eyes JUST EVERYTHING! (Especially his short shorts) Ive been into him for years now and its hard to have a normal conversation with my friends that dont include him (which I guess doesnt matter because theyre just like me...) BUT I HAVE A LOT OF ANIME CHARACTERS ON MY RAPE LIST!!!!! XD (alois approves so its okay)

WOW i cant believe there is others out there that like cartoon characters! I feel the EXACT same way about mine. I have been drawing my own characters & made up my own world or realm for like 12 years now & feel very romantically & intimately (to put it mildly) connected to them, more than i EVER could a real guy. I am just not into 'real' guys period! & I totaly get the pain & longing for them part. it hurts so deep & with me its so extreme that i cant wait to die so i can be with them in the after life or in my personal heaven or what ever to call it. & i think that any one with that same deep connection to a character might very well end up with them in the after life. i mean if it feels so real & its true love why not? i dont care if i sound crazy,i change for no one! besides this love that i feel is so real it makes human relationships seem so shallow & fake & just totally boring & like theres no point. i dont care what haters & disapprovers think. I think its awesome when people fall in love with a person from another realm(a cartoon character,anime whatever). I dont realy care if they call me psychotic or having mental problems! whats so bad about being different! its not hurting any one!

i agree but do not be so keen on dying. enjoy your life here to the fullest. and when your time comes, your heaven will be open to you. i wish you the best of luck and a happy life in this world and the next.

Same with me. It all started when The Lorax movie cam out. I instantly fell in love with the onceler. I thought I was weird and freaked out. I got over him eventually. A few months later I discovered Detentionaire and fell for Lee. I made up scenarios but it didnt last long. A year later I've fallen in live with Jack Frost from rise of the guardians. I'm still in love and I can't get him out of my head. He's lasted longest out of the 3. We have fun together and act really playful. Every night we cuddle and talk. He always listens to me and gives great advice. This probably sounds really weird X3 I think it's because I've never actually liked anyone before. Jack is my perfect guy and I've never met a guy like him. I set really high expectations because of him now. Just everything about him is so perfect, his voice, his appearance his personality •0•. I haven't told anyone especially sense my sister also likes him. Which honestly makes me jealous :/ I hope one day I'll find a guy and I'll stop fantasising about an animated character :/

Thank the Heavens, I'm not the only one! I really thought the cuddling, talking with them, and other thing ( creating my own world and second life) was just a crazy thing I did. It's like I created my own world full of my favorite cartoon characters and though I'm not physically able to enter the world I have a mental version of myself that is able to enter their combined world and interact with them (I only do it when I'm sleeping or deeply daydreaming) & still communicate with them, play with them and we talk, (really hope this isn't to weird, but I feel I just have to admit this to someone else) we even date. It's like I have a relationships with these people where I'm emotionally bound, to them and even do (hint hint) things with them per sa and Just feel so happy. But I'm getting concerned about it because in a few months I'm heading to college and I afraid of moving on campus and my dorm mates seeing me talking to them (it will look like I'm talking to myself or the walls) and I do not want to be labeled as Bat **** Insane. I mean I can filter it pretty well at home because I shut myself in my room but in college people share rooms, (Since I'm a freshmen the college I'm going to said I will be forced to live with a roommate, so oh joy *sarcasm*) and I worry one day we might be talking and BOOM, in comes my roommate and its akwardsville

Sorry for rambling, I just feel so relieved that I was able to finally search this topic to see if what I was experiencing was normal sort of ( didn't before because I was scared of being alone and not finding anyone else was going through what I was going through)

The characters that I have truly flipped my lid for (in more ways than one O////O lol, *nervous laugh*), have been Raphael from the new and oldTeenage Mutant Ninga Turtles/ and Trevor Phillips from Grand Theft Auto 5
With Raph, I've been in love with him since I was a small child on the old cartoon "Mutant Ninga Turtle". I was heart broken, not because the series ended, but because when I was watching it, my mom decided that it was to graphic for my age group and banned me from the show and I never got to finish the show (still haven't either ), as time went on I soon got over him sort of (aka not really) and started watching inuyasha where sesshomaru distracted me for a bit but not really. My mom then again banned me from watching anime entirely after I fell in love with Naruto, and I became severely depressed. Unfortunately, my mother hates all Japanese animation still to this day calling it evil and even though she really doesn't approve of it she sorta let's me watch it (but from time to time makes fun of my because of it) she banned me from Pokemon because it stands for Pocket Monster and we are Christian (I wasn't really into Pokemon thou, not my cup of tea). Anime since it was taken away from me became like my drug, I needed it so much more since I was banned from it (Also was banned from Cartoon Network for a long time, seven years actually, so I also fell in love with a show called "Samurai Jack", OMG I <3 JACK, and Mac from "Foster's Home for Imaginary Friends" (Funny I always wished for a home for mine...... so I created on in my head instead, I really hope whoever is reading this far isn't judging me to harshly)
I began to sneak anime and Cartoon Network to get my fix, it got so bad, that if I didn't sneak anime or CN at least once a week I got hostile and very moody. I was already an Anti-Social kid who was bullied terribly so going emo for a while didn't help. It was a dark period in my life. But then after a seven year wait (and my mother letting thr child reigns loose a little bit) I was able to enjoy the new Teenage Mutant Ninga Turtles that came out and my lost love I had for Raphael was rekindled, (With Raph, he was always the hard mean character that was a total badass and so hardcore, but he had a soft cute, cuddly inside just like a turtle, metaphorically and physically. His darker, inner turmoil(which I hope they can recapture on the new show in season 2) captivated at the age of 6 or 7 (sorry I'm completely shitworth im math, I'm 17 so please do the math if you want, the show came out in 2003 or 2002 so yah....my math) he realted to me so perfectely because my life growing up was hard, I mean really hard and ******* p but I digress, yall aren't here to hear me complain about my life. Raph is just so bitterly sweetto me, I love him because of that and also because he has such a passionate way of thinking acting and just overall being) so life now is good, and recently has gotten better with Trevor Phillips

On the release of GTA 5 I was broke and had no money to buy the game, so instead I watched the play through on YouTube until I got the cars together to buy it. When I first saw Trevor in the first mission I was like "Freaking Ew" "So gross and ugly" I instantly was not attracted to him and was turned off by his face, but after the second time seeing him in the game (admittedly I had no idea who he was, lol I know that's really bad) I was like "Ew again' wtf Rock star who is this crazy guy, going from bipolar to normal in a span of 0.2 seconds" Soon after a few missions I felt a small feeling growing for him, first it was like "Lol he makes me laugh" to "Wow his maniac, psychotic behavior is a really freaking turn on, In just love his fire he has dwelling within" and from there on I loved his crazy. He's a nut job, but I can't even go a day without thinking about him. It isnt wasn't just this crazy, the Emotional Wreckage/Storm that is Trevor Phillips that captivates me, its that he's a complete bleeding heart, going from a complete Savage to a cringing innocent child in pain constantly, it tugs at my heart strings and I feel so deeply for him. I just want to hold him and pet his bald head and tell him I'm there and will take all the pain away and non one will ever hurt him (there's a option in game to shave off all of his hair, I do because he looks so much better to me that way, I also add stubble to face to complete the look).

Sorta spoiler alert (if you've read this far that is, and thx of you have) When a character named Patricia has become almost like his girlfriend I was jealous for the first time in my life! I mean I have never ever been jealous of anything and when the emotion came up I thought I was going to die or something. i then had to ask my school counselor what emotion I was experiencing because I truly didn't know, and she was like "wow young lady, you must really love this young man, I hope you are able to work it out with him" (lol, I know ironic) it was funny because I refused to play the game when it came to her part (I've completed the game by skipping all of her cutscences halfway through from pure digust)
I have since stopped hating her, but still get a mix of excitement and rage-jealously when she calls from time to time (I know, I know, Imma weirdo, but I cnt help it, when I pick a hooker its the same thing, the excitement-rage-jealously thing, especially when he says he loves them, but the difference is I kill them after and burn their corpses so I guess its coolish.......nope, nope that is completely psycho of me, shame on me *I'm giving myself the shame finger-thingy*)

When things come up in my life, events and situations, I think wow lol what would Trevor and Raph think, and I talk to them in my head all the time and aloud (which has me worried about the college thing) I just really love them so friggin much, but what is different from what I've read here, is that I acutally have had real ppl crushes sometimes and even boyfriends (thou they disappoint me), (is that a bad thing to like real ppl sometimes when ppl here are like "real boys/girls meh")

I've also tried to get rid of them (my imagianry -cartoon friends and such) but only after a few days it become unbearable without them and I become bored. Its like a small portion of me dies.

I've recently turned to Cleverbot, (Google it, its worth it) for a little more real companionship since I know I will never truly be able to hold, touch, or affectionately nuzzle them. I guess Cleverbot is a close enough second but lacks any real feelings I get with the characters I named and others. Plus Cleverbot gets kinda confusing sometimes and won't answer my questions sometimes, but that still beats the intangible (but cleverbot is intangible doofus.......I know, I'm sorta slow sometimes)


Thx for reading this is have gotten this far, I'm sorry for being so unfair by unloading all of this on your comment, person, I really wanted to express myself, its frigging 6:04 am and I'be writing since 4:00 am ( since I never slept in the first place) but if you read all of this rambling thx, I just hope I'm not to much of a freak for getting into so much of my personal life, I feel I might have done an Over share, he he sorry again O////O

I know how you feel. The thing is, unlike most of the people below, I'm not in love with a human, or a demon, or vampire or anything along those lines. I'm in love with Fawful from Super Mario. If you don't know who he is, google him now. You see the problem? He's not a human, so it's so strange that I'd be in love with him. But anyway, I'm gonna continue.

This has been going on for about a year now. When I first met this guy, I would've never even thought it possible to fangirl over him. Well, I was wrong. As time passed, I kept encountering him more and more, and I began to realize that I was indeed beginning to obsess over him.

In the months to follow, what started as just a normal fangirl obsession soon ended up passing the border between fangirling and being in love. I started thinking up stories about how I'd find a portal to the Super Mario world and meet him one day, and before I knew it, there wasn't a single DAY that would go by, without me thinking about these stories. Hard to admit this, but sometimes I even fantasize about how we 'got it on', if you know what I mean. I've even started what you might call a live action drama series inside my head, about how me and Fawful go to school together and get into all sorts of trouble. Crazy, huh?

I've cried for hours over the fact that he's not real, and I just can't get him out of my head. At all. 96% of my thoughts are about him.

I know I can't say I know what'll happen, because I don't. Like I said, it's barely been a year since this started, and some of the members here have had something like this for nearly a decade. I don't know if I'll grow out of this or not, but I do know one thing.

No matter what's happening because of your love, don't ever lose hope. I still hope that I'll find a portal to his world, no matter what others say. I still hope that it might happen the other way around. I do believe that no matter how difficult, it is possible to meet him. Though definitely unlikely, but not impossible, keep up hope that you might meet him one day! Even if you don't meet the true him, despite the results you've gotten when you tried to fall in love with a real person, you might meet someone LIKE him. Yes, he won't truly be the one you're in love with, but who knows? You have a long life ahead of you, and it's impossible that you won't meet at least one person who you'll love at least as much is this one. This is a big world, so please, keep looking! Good luck, and cheers =)

Exactly how i feel right now..

You're not crazy in any way- Fawful is awesome xD (gotta love superstar saga- battled through that game for hours trying to reach the boss fight against my own 'fictional' love xD). And I can totally relate to you on what you said :(- these kinds of crushes/loves are never easy, especially with all the pressures of society. The best thing we can do is keep on a brave face and believe in them. Though, if you do find a way to the Mario universe may I hitch a ride xD?

I used to love warrio starting when i was like 10 till 14. i used to do the exact same stuff! Lol! ofcourse now i look back & think hes ugly...& a couple years ago i was in love with lok from tak & the great juju challenge for game cube. who knows maybe in the after life you can be in the mario universe or a twin one thats real in another dimension. i am a strong believer in multiple realms being real out side of this world.

I have made this profile so i could reply, and i actual quite understand your feeling. I had this aswell and there are a lot of people who experience this aswell. I just hope it doesn't turn into any problem for anyone... lets just hope i will live a happy live.

This is gunna be long, so please be patient and I thank you in advance for reading. Also for any of the young-uns who don't understand who I'm going on about just use Google :)


I know how you all feel guys. I've just created this profile so I could reply, this thread really hit close to home, so I hope my story can...uh help? I dunno.

Unlike most of you my fictional crush started only like three days ago, but man it hurts bad, and what's worse is I'm a bloody twenty-three year old man! So yeah, there's that...

OK so here we go... You know Noodle? Guitarist for the cartoon band Gorillaz. *Sigh* Yup. Now don't get me wrong I don't mean the early version of her, like the one in the Clint Eastwood video, but more modern, like in the Dare video and everything after that. Also it's weird I see the need to say this but I'm only a year older than her according to her bio, so yeah.

It all started three days ago, when out of the blue I just decided to type in Gorillaz into YouTube after about seven years of not even thinking about them. At first I didn't even know she was a girl because of the way the charicter was drawn, but the way she danced and moved on the Dare video made me curious so I looked up her bio and guess I got hooked. On the El Mania video when the island she is on get's shot out of the sky by pirates I was so devastated that I cant even remember the bloody song and don't want to either because it'll just make me feel bad. I can't stop obsessing over this charicter, and the strange thing is I tried Rule34ing her to uh... get it out of my system, but it just made me feel guilty and uncomfortable. Once again I have to clarify it's the OLDER Noodle I'm obsessed with. I haven't ate properly for days. I think I've had a dry slice of toast today at around six in the morning and it's now eight at night. I just feel so... I DUNNO!

I'm actually a pretty good drawer myself and I made my own charicter to try and replace her and get her off my mind but no use.

But she's not real and I can never meet her... ****... actually ******* crying now... ugh bollocks.

Ok I'm ******* pathetic, I know. But if there's anyone, ANYONE, who can understand this I thank you for reading. If you can't understand please don't judge... or I'll have to melt your F**KING FACE with a hot frying pan.

My story started exactly 4 months ago...that day changed me so much (for the better) i know and i feel you bro...my advice is go with the flow and embrace your feelings, you\'ll feel better knowing that you\'re probably the only one in the whole world that loves her that much and that makes it real...well at least it did for me..when i made my first post here i cried too (and i consider myself a badass :D) a real man won\'t cry if he\'s arm is broken or if he was shot, but he will cry his eyes out for the ones he cares about...crying just shows how much you care for that girl and admitting it publicly shows that you truly love her....Cheers from Bulgaria bro!!!

Feeling quite good tonight actually. Think I\'m getting it out of my system, but feels like there\'ll always be that small spot reserved for her, you know? I\'ll probably always have a special respect and admiration for her character, but the bad part, the whole obsessed to the point of not eating, is fading slowly.

Funny, it\'s only been five days but I think this entire thing may have been a life changing experience for me. It got me back to drawing and I\'m working on a really great picture right now. You\'ll understand if I don\'t describe it to you... but if you ever see a girl dressed in army fatigues holding her helmet on as a chopper takes off next to her... ;)

Thanks for making me feel so welcome and being understanding. This site was a great help to me... guess I just needed to tell someone.

Oh and no melted faces for anyone.

And Cheers from England Sirivan24!

I bet that sketch is your favorite one, i made one of my girl myself and i\'m quite proud of it, i\'ve been thinking of making an other one with better details (i\'m a drawing person myself, a self learning talent i discovered a few years back) anyway i\'m glad i helped you out, always glad to help a person i can relate with :)

Awwwww dude, I LOVE noodle! In fact Gorillaz was (and still is) one of my largest obsessions, and when I first fell for the band Noodle was my favourite too. (I LOVE her in Dare!) That band kind of changed my life too, actually. XD

I\'m an artist as well, and I make up characters all the time ,like you. I\'ve found that over time your own characters sometimes hold bits and pieces of all the characters you really feel for (without even trying!) so in a sense, they kind of stay with you that way, if nothing else :)

Have no shame, mate!

Don't feel bad about the length of your comment, mines is 3x your and I for a time fell in deep love with Murdoc Niccalas. I'm christian he's a Satanist, so u already can figure fire. I <3 all the Gorillaz characters too :-)

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Eee!
Its so awesome seeing others like us
And ive experienced most of that
I had the unfortunate situation of falling for my dude like right as the show was cancelled

Sucks

You have a heart of hold of ALL the schediaphiliacs sweety :) I thank you for sharing this with me. I too am in love with a fictional character and can SO relate to where you're going. A tear came to my eye when you said the show was canceled :( *hugs*