If Only He KnewI wanted to let this out for a while so here it goes, I guess..
In my 15 years of being in this damn planet I have NEVER felt this way towards someone like this. The sad part is that he is not here; he's not even real, he's just a character from a game. Sure I've had little crushes on boys in school or mini boyfriends ( that really don't mean anything ) but this guy is... something.
I won't say who he is because I'm embarrassed but he means everything to me. I was in a depressing time and he helped me, now it's like I'm scared to let go.
As for some background, he is somehow a lonely character and his parents are disappointed in him. I know how it feels to be lonely and be a disappointment, so my attachment towards this character got stronger.
It sucks when you can't talk about this to people around you because you're scared of the judgement or the rejection, so you pretty much hide your feelings. So matter how much you want to scream it out you can't.
I've tried astral projection to contact him and still trying, and I've dreamed... but it's really not enough. I wish I could just go to another dimension/universe to where he is and just stay there.
I would give and do ANYTHING for it happen. I would even sell my stupid soul just for him.
Yes it's weird but oh well.. I can't help it.
deleted 26-30 7 Responses 1 Feb 10, 2013