In Love With My Own Character...
I am in love with my OWN story character, one that I just made up, around three years ago. Most people woulden't see him as perfect (His mother is either dead/left him, and his dad is a rich SOB to everyone but his own son, thankgoodness.)
I know he's not real. But I keep having dreams about him. I keep thinking about him, and our 'life' together (basically my life now but with him in it.)
I have never had a real boyfriend, or ever been on a date (I have been asked once or twice, but I always reply with a funny, yet subtle, 'no.')
Whenever I listen to a good song, if I'm in the mood I'll just create a music video in my head with him in it. I sound SO crazy, but when I really think about it, Edward Cullen has just as many girls who are head over heels for him, and he is just a fictional character, too.
We want what we can't have. And it hurts knowing that they're not real, and it hurts that I have a fake number on my phone with his name listed as a contact. It hurts that, even though you can't hug him or kiss him, he'll always be there in your mind, in your stories that you write, in your diary.
I don't know WHY I love him, I just do. And yes, it sucks.
I guess this is one of those things that you can't live with...but you can't live without...