I Am In Love With A Fictional Character
Hello everyone, What I will tell, most people will find crazy, and I can't believe I actually admit this, but .. I'm desperately and irrevocably in love with a virtual character.
I used to get crushes on this anime/manga character throughout my childhood. I watched the anime he is in a lot. I fantasized about him and another character falling in love, though I must admit I replaced the other character's characteristics with that of my own. I put myself in place of that person so that I could live as if I were the one by his side.. As if we were 'special' friends..
When I got older, my feelings for this guy changed completely. I'm sure you have all heard the term "fan girl" before...well...it's gotten to the point, with me, I'm no longer just a fan-girl. I don't let out ear splitting "squees" whenever I see him anymore. I am...completely and desperately in love with him. I wrap him around many of my thoughts. He makes me feel loved in return...somehow. I really care about him...entirely...I would do anything for him. He is so amazing...unfairly beautiful...smart, calm and collected with a caring and protective instinct. His most distinguished trait is his sense of pride and fairness (which I find adorable). I just feel as if I can relate to him so well...in so many things...!
And now please don't think I don't know how it feels like to love a real man, I did and I got horribly hurt - more than once - I prefer spending the rest of my life just with my virtual love than being so greatly hurt by a real man ever again.