27 Years Later...it's Still There!!!

I have been happily married for 11 years, and my husband, who has been working overseas for the past 17 months suddenly, without warning, asked me for a divorce seven months ago.  I have not began divorce procedings yet, but plan to soon.  I have been in shock and feeling betrayed, undesirable, and beyond depressed for months now without any hope for the future. 

Recently and old boyfriend began emailing me.  We have seen each other in the same social circles over the years and know each others spouses, but have never approched the subject of 'us'.  We dated 27 years ago and he has always been the love of my life.  We broke up when I moved off to go to college.  He has been married for 22 years.  We usually just email jokes and funny stuff, but a few weeks ago, we started talking about 'yesteryears' and he commented that talking to me had brought back a flood of fantastic memories.  Then he asked if I ever wondered what it would be like after all these years...I confessed that I had alway thought about it and had loved him my whole life.  He asked if I would be willing to get together and talk.  I agreed and invited him to come to my house, which is about an hour from where he lives.  I felt like a nervous teenager again, waiting on him that night.  But as soon as he walked in and we started talking it was so comfortable and familiar.  We talked for hours and also discussed our marriages and how mine was falling apart and how his was cold and loveless.  He said that the drastic lack of attention had become unbearable, but there is no impending divorce in his situation.   He ended up spending the night and we made love all night......and it was, as he put it, "as natural as rain in the Spring".   It was the best night I've had in 27 years!  Everything about it was wonderful, it was even better that all those years ago.  We have continued to email each other and neither one of us can stop thinking about our time together that night.  We planned on getting together last weekend, but couldn't work it out.  I don't know what is going to happen, and as much as I would like to, I don't want to get my hopes up for anything more that just what it is right now....All I can do is see where this leads and enjoy the fact that all of those strong emotions we had for each other have lasted for all these years. 

dtwlover dtwlover
1 Response Feb 19, 2009

So, I know this is years later, but what every happened between you guys?